kurt vonnegut

Everything was beautiful...
Originally uploaded by Lemonjr

gifts:
gift card for itunes
gift card for sun diego
IC camera gun scarf
trip to san francisco to visit the best friend
and a money commitment from my mom

so, with the money commitment.., they're supporting my want to go to africa, but the thing is, i didn't ask for that. i wasn't even going to apply to go this year on the flood trips. so i'm bitter about it because i really wanted plane tickets to seattle, because i know that trip would have worked. now it feels like i need to rearrange my plans in order to please the parents and use that gift they gave me. also, i don't even KNOW if they'd pick me to go on the uganda trip with flood. i don't. at all.

why am i bitter about it? i want to go.

but at the same time, it feels like it might just go wasted. it's dumb.

:/

merry christmas.

the show.

Welcome to The Show (177/365)
Originally uploaded by Katherine Elizabeth

"the show" by lenka.
a talented aussie singer.

anyway, merry christmas eve.
i am excited for the christmas eve service.
there's a strange beauty in candle light among
the darkness. so i am very excited for this
candle light service.

i am also excited to go to this service as an
observer... first time in a long while. it'll be
different.

ho ho hopefully the maine

tomorrow is christmas. it has lost its childlike
charm, but it hasn't lost it's meaning to me.

i'm extremely mellowed out right now. i think
i may be getting sick, but i honestly do not know.
either way. it's winter and i love it. i have free,
unscheduled time, and i love it. (i would also like
to spend it with you. very very much so)

"And the first time that You opened Your eyes
Did You realize that You would be my Savior
And the first breath that left Your lips
Did You know that it would change this world forever
And the first time that You opened Your eyes
Did You realize that You would be my Savior
And the first breath that left Your lips
Did You know that it would change this world forever"
i celebrate the day-relient k

merry christmas, love.
spread the holiday cheer.
i love you.

question mark

Question Mark on the Wall
Originally uploaded by The B@man

confusion
and
questions
of
all
sorts.

i
don't
know.

float like a butterfly

Float Like A Butterfly...
Originally uploaded by BennCapon

sting like a bee.

life is
simply my play ground.
i'll do what i want
when i want.

i dare you to tame my
free spirit.

and the only one who
can regulate when
i work and play is
God.

i like structure
and reliance on my
Holy and Amazing Father

but i'll flit from thing to
thing. dance from place
to place. stomp on new
grounds and kick up
a storm.

i dare you to try and tame
me.

:]

it'll be fun to see you make an attempt.

i was pretending

IMG_3615
Originally uploaded by xxblackdahlias

to be fat kid getting a piggy back
because at the time, i thought it
was super funny.

because i am HILARIOUS

oh geez, man.
i am nuts.
nuts, nuts, nuts.

i want supplies to start this set
already!!

argggggg

lalalalalala

i'm working on a new playlist.

i don't

I'm not ready (365/19)
Originally uploaded by Jordan Kiley

think i'm ready
to give up my
independence
yet.

a day late

Heart
Originally uploaded by Mary Hare

home-mae
good song. i keep playing it over and over.


Ten Things I'm Thankful For
10. The many people God has placed in my life that have helped shape it. (Family, Friends, etc.)
9. Music.
8. The art of worship and that we can worship Christ in any way.
7. Creativity.
6. My internship at an amazing church here in san diego.
5. The many doors God keeps opening in my life to slowly show me his plan. (i went from being a technical theater major specializing in sound and design to being a business major in hopes of starting a non-profit some day!)
4. That I am blessed to live a comfortable life, especially when people have it nowhere near as good as I do.
3. The many opportunities I get to volunteer and use the gift of servantry that God has given me. (volunteering makes me so happy. i can't even come up with words to describe it)
2. Invisible Children and all the other non-profits for doing everything they can to better people's lives in whichever way possible.
1. God's mercy, beauty, creation, love, and grace.

triple dot.

Heart
Originally uploaded by Mary Hare

"it's simple," she said, "i live in a world of fairy books and story tales. a world of mix-ups and disarray. it's topsy-turvy, or upside down. you're different, or you're perfect. outside we love the inner beauty and inside we love the aesthetically pleasing things. decisions are and aren't. things are there but then again, are illusions"

she smiled like the cheshire cat and walked away.

"remember:" she called out, "things are nice or unkempt, or only appear to be so. like i said, i live in a world of fairy books and story tales. it's up to you to make it right."

welcome to my intro for 3D, the new flood high series.
my role as the flood high intern has been changed around.

"i feel like you're a box of amazing things and capabilities that i have been sitting on" said noel.

i now focus on administrative things and creative arts.
i don't lead high schoolers anymore *sigh of relief*
i love the ones i have grown close to, but yeah.
it's so awkward to be in an authoritative position.

so now i create.
and develop.
and have my brain picked more frequently.

am i happier now?
yes.

do i resent doing high school stuff anymore?
nope.

why?
i'm creating things, now. using the spiritual gift that God has blessed me with. when i honor Him and make Him happy, He blesses me in many, many a way.

i love you.

blind.

Blinded
Originally uploaded by blind.folds

um.
semi blind-ish date
sort of thing on sunday?
i blame haley.

but i do like what i know.

*giggles*

oliver!

Oliver (or Ollie)
Originally uploaded by Dylan_Murphy

that's the dog's name in the picture.
yeahhh it's cute. haha. but not mine
at all.

anyway, this weekend has been alright.
hung out with people i went to high school
with.. it was good to see a few, but then
temptation of old habits rolled around
and i bailed pretty fast... didn't want to
get easily caught up in that crap again.

for others, i remembered why i didn't
really stay in contact again... it's so strange
to see how some guy friends STILL have not
grown up. i feel like i'm leaps and bounds
ahead of them in life, and they're still
stuck in high school. it's unfortunate.

anyway... ice skated for the second time in
my life... i didn't cling to the wall, which i
was stoked about. :] but i was not very stoked
about the wonderously huge blisters that are
decorating my feet. i feel like a poster child
for band aids right now.

daddy dearest wants to take family portraits..
so we'll seeeeeee.... i kind of want my own
portraits taken as well, so we'll see what the
dad says.

2 extra days of weekend. i am happy.

anyway, love you.
have a great week.

pray for me?
i feel a bit off balance
for some odd reason.

attempt #2

Skating Palms Out
Originally uploaded by [ CK ]

since i have parents that are from puerto rico
it never really occurred to them to take their
now very americanized children on adventures
to the snow (which i still have yet to experience)
and ice skating.

i have been ice skating once.
tonight will be attempt #2.

i will take a mental tally
of my many meetings of
butt on ice.

wootage.

ahhhh

<3

oh my God shine your light on us

i feel like the lip ring makes my vicious face look more vicious :]
haha. ugh i'm so lame sometimes, i crack myself up.

last night i had to tell my life story to my growth group....and if you know me
and know my past.. it does not at all in the slightest bit come in a pretty
little package. and we're working together on a book called come with me
which is amazing... but i wasn't able to answer a whole section of it just
because i knew it would bring everything that i dealt with growing up
back to the surface... and i hate those times where i have to be vulnerable.
and those times where i am even brought to cry because all those scars
resurface... so i skipped forward in the chapter for this week and read on
about feeling weary... and then i realized that i love it when i can cry
and just stop and breathe... because i can feel God's arms wrapping
around me and cradling me. His gentle shushing...the fact that it's all
ok...

it's a stage of vulnerability for me.

and my normal reaction to this thing would be for me to put on this
tough as nails facade. but. God has been helping me tear down these
walls that i have built around myself for "protection" my whole life.
i'm afraid to get too close in fear of getting hurt. but... there comes
that word again. vulnerability.

so. here's to changes. and here is to me making no sense...
it made sense in my head.

vulnerability.

i kind of like it.

i love you.

the picture above is from my art show.

Art Show
Originally uploaded by thebestofwill

so, it was a brilliant success.
we sold out of tickets cuz the
administration capped us at
200, but i kept letting people
in free... and they in turn
donated the $5 admission.

we had a silent auction that
wound up being very successful
and the artists sold more work
which they in turn donated the
money to us which was sweet
of them... they could have kept
it as personal profit.

merch sold well.
the musicians were amazing.

and i, and very relieved.
project managing is hard...
especially when people only
half ass jobs and i have to fix it.

but alas, it is over, and it feels
like i am light enough to fly away
into the soft blue skies.

things are winding down for
me and i couldn't feel more content
and relaxed... now if only the weather
would get colder, things would
virtually be perfect for me.

but i can't have everything, right?

i love you.

Play'n Dress-Up

Play'n Dress-Up
Originally uploaded by annieK bananie

i have no idea what to be for halloween.
what are cute ideas?
i want to be something cute.
i am normally something gory
or super intense
but this year
i want to be cute.
cute cute cute.

i keep on falling

Lip Ring
Originally uploaded by Shannon Teresa

my friend heidi pierced her nose
yesterday. i talked to my parents
about me piercing my lip. they
said they wouldn't like it, but
that there wasn't much they could
do about it anyway. so now it's just
a matter of me getting money for it.

but i'm kind of really super excited
for it.

my brother's band did well last night.
they got a mosh pit. in turn, their
front man, grant, gave the audience
a lovely crotch shot of his tightie whities
since his pants split in the entire crotch
region...due to his spaz antics.

and uh...
i like the little baby penguins in the movie
surf's up...which i am watching right now
while blogging/writing my essay/being
distracted.

books to purchase:
the orphaned anythings
unchristian
.

love you.

one day i slowly floated away

"I volunteer to tutor the fledgling"
Originally uploaded by Sherri DuPree

my little brother and his band
have their second gig ever today.
and they're playing at soma!
i am so proud of this kid.
he's so talented! God truly blessed
him with a gift for music. although,
i think he totally dominates the universe
when he plays his saxophones.
yes, plural. :]

so i get to go to their gig tonight.
and i get to be his one invited guest
who gets to get in back stage.

:]

i love the kid. he's amazing.

well, off to pwn this essay.
the descriptions i use could
win you over in a heart beat.
<3

love you.

frisco

San Francisco at night, Twin Peaks
Originally uploaded by Steve W Lee

hello, san francisco
can't wait to see you
in january.

and i can't wait to
see cj!

:]

<3 love.
SO EXCITED.

oh, darlin'

Jamie Darling
Originally uploaded by rianflynn

once again, for the 6th week in a row,
my english teacher has taught us
nothing.

my child psych teacher cancelled
class after 20 minutes because
she said the weather was too nice
(indeed it was!)

i got to enjoy a nice iced chai
over at Cutter's Point yesterday

and got to go get mojito cookies
with Brad at Azucar in OB
(delicious desserts!)

and have dinner with Berlin
to catch up and enjoy each other's
company.

i swung by the coffee cart at the
ferry landing just to meander and
i saw Adi and Tom.

this week has been a week of
reconnecting.

doo doo doo dah doo doo

Launch
Originally uploaded by SARAΗ LEE

new schedule:
mondays: absolutely off.
tuesdays: school, intern, growth group
wednesdays: intern, college group
thursdays: school, evenings off.
fridays: mornings off, flood high in the PM...
fridays=negotiable.
satudays: absolutely off
sundays: mornings off, flood PM shift.

*sigh of relief*

yay.

:]

i can have a life again.

i love you.

i just keep on going and going and going and going

Plaça Catalunya - Barcelona HDR
Originally uploaded by MorBCN

i should live in a city that never sleeps.
cuz then i can literally just keep going
and going and going and going and
blah blah blah.

so today, i am going to try
and slow down, do what i can to
slow myself down just a bit
because i feel like i'm losing myself.

i don't know how to have fun anymore..
how sad is that?

anyway. i'm watching an episode of
the ex-list...and it's filmed in OB
and i laugh at the writing every five seconds.
because it's so cheesy, sex-infused, and pathetic.
but i watch it anyway.
cuz it cracks me up.

sad, yes? or no? do i have anyone to back me up?

and i'm going to punch whoever left me a note
in my cubicle that said "only attractive girls belong here"

if that was you, guard your package, because by
the time i am done with you... you and i will probably
be the same gender.

mmk.
bye.

weary

Originally uploaded by emily hunt

working for God is amazing
but also very, very hard.

i'm an introvert.
i have not had "me" time
in a very long time.

i tried to cut my hours so i
could rest, but alas...
someone always needs
something.

and my days off are never days off...
because someone needs something.
always.

thank you, ryan, for offering me
the chance to go up with you to
SLO for halloween weekend.

i look forward to it.

because i really need a few days
to escape and regain who i am.

isn't it sad that i don't know
what's fun to do anymore?

i.am.small

i.am.small
Originally uploaded by Jessie Marie>

computer off.
phone off.
door shut.
distractions out.
noise ignored.

silence.
stillness.

and He speaks to me.
and He is so loud.
and His voice surrounds me.
His voice is loud enough that
the deaf can hear Him.

be silent.
be still.

i need to learn to be that again.

go.

Invisible Children Roadie Van
Originally uploaded by Abrilon

i wanna be a roadie so bad.
put me in a van.
send me off somewhere.

ugh.

watching GO! did not help
the urge to be a roadie any.

such a good film.
i wanna go so bad.

hope, coffee, and melody.

kelsey
Originally uploaded by kevin russ

hello, love heads.
i hope all of you are fantastic.
(and if you aren't, then know
that i think you're fantastic
either way)

anyway. it's 7:04am.
i am supposed to be at Flood
ready to go and set up in
26 minutes, technically...
but i just have happened
to have gotten out of the
shower...so...i am nowhere
near ready :]

yay for being late?
well, i get to play with
cannons today... confetti
cannons, that is. and wait
on Phil Wickham and get
whatever he needs to be
content...blahblah.

oh well. it will be busy.
i work an all day shift today.
7:30AM (8)-11:30 PM
weeeooooooo

UPsides:
+free coffee from my first starbucks (i lurve my old coworkers)
+ "baby sister" and me time.
+planning for schools for schools
+smoothies
+re-connecting with old friends/classmates
+getting to cut down on office hours this week

oh, p.s. new set is gonna be made this week. if you want to help me make it, i would love you. forever. (even though i already do)

post.post.script. robbie seay is coming back to Flood on november 9th. it's gonna be pretty much a concert sunday. the Hope, Coffee, and Melody tour. i like the name of the tour. it makes me smile.

p.p.p.s. i want cold weather.

uhhh the picture is amazing.

Originally uploaded by maneeacc

so.
oddest assignment for the week:
find a piece of red carpet that is 8'x12'
yes. for N[b]L....

and then i need to eventually coax myself
into driving over to smart and final to go and
purchase stuff for coffee making for N[b]L.

i guess my barista skills and starbucks
training will never go to waste, eh? although,
i am still very much determined to learn how
to make foam art. but how, i do not know.

i also need to make a GIANT X for the
new series at flood. we're studying the
ten commandments. i wish i had recorded the
creative meeting we had to brain storm for it.
it was funny. i can't even sum it up for you as
to how funny it was. oh man. but the giant
X is gonna make me think of x-men for the
entire series. oh well. i do what i need to do.
:]

and along with all that, the wit and sarcasm bug
has bit me again so i could not be more excited.

and also, let me tell you...being puerto rican is
not it's all cracked up to be. i can't go in the sun
for a few minutes and not get darker. after tabling
at UCSD for schools for schools and
flood i can bitterly say that my right arm is
darker than my left. i have the tan lines to prove it.

i will leave you with that, me hearties (i love the pirate
speak option on facebook) since now i need to somehow
wander on over to the flood offices to do intern stuff and
whatnot.

i love you dearly.
xoxo.

p.s. gay aiken came out of the closet. he has a gayby.
well, technically a love child of sorts that he had with
his female produce lady or whatever. thought i'd share.
adam k. was the one who told me yesterday when i was
typing up power points for flood high. and it goes to show
you that you should not let me multi task by talking and
typing at the same time because instead of typing up
lyrics for one of the worship songs, i typed in "gayken"
and "gayby". that would not have been very appropriate,
now...

hot date

IMG_9566-15
Originally uploaded by paigenewtonphotography

so i have a hot date.
with my child psychology homework.
now, contain your excitement people.
not all of us can be this lucky.

i'll let you know how it goes.

;]

hahahahaha.

i am SO funny.
and you know it, too.

jay kay.

love you.

creative

IV bag
Originally uploaded by the tЯefts

my creative juices
aren't flowing
right now.
jeepers.

in a flippin' box.

This Girl Came From A Levitating Box.. 6/52
Originally uploaded by marypoppins.

so.
i do not like how people
place all these preconceived
ideas on me as to how i am
supposed to be and what
i am supposed to be like or
whatever the hell it may be.

i. do. not. belong. in. a. damned. box.
stop trying to put me in one.

i am very frustrated at a person and do
not see how a friendship is possible
with said person if all they do is get mad
at me for whatever reason. because i always
do something wrong, apparently.
*sigh*

friday was good.
saturday was lovely.
sunday....today is still potential. who knows.

love you.

organization

little sky
Originally uploaded by Ali K.

i organized my bedroom today.
it looks good.
i give it a week before i tear it
up again.

hahahahaha.

ugh.
back to statistics.
anyone wanna do
my homework?
i'll give you a cookie.

i am i am i am

Eco (dell'irrecuperabile e del casuale)
Originally uploaded by Ishah*

i am a photo-napper.
only because i need "artistic"
backgrounds for when i make
glorious powerpoints for flood.
not for my benefit, but for yours.
so you can know they lyrics to the
amazing worship songs.
and announcements.
and whatever the heck else it may be.
but none the less...

:] pirate, i am.
i am a pirate.
una pirata, soy yo.

so whilst i am ditching statistics
in order to study for my psychology
test, i am also multi-tasking.
for example: reading and playing
with my hair.
and thinking about how amazing
this weekend will be.
and internet-ing.
email sending.
and debating whether or not i
should get up and purchase a
mocha and a cinnamon roll from
the cafe that is just 50 yards away from me.

well, then.
la di da.

peace, yo.

Scissors

Scissors
Originally uploaded by a ____ in light

my hair is short again.
:]

communication complications?

stood-up on a date
Originally uploaded by rusocer

freakin a.
honestly, how hard is it to:
a) call to cancel
b) text/call a person back
c) reschedule
or even just
d) be straight up with someone?

piss, man.
just
my
darned
freaking
luck.

oh, people love me, don't they.
love me sooooo so much
to deceive me.

i am not happy.
and that is
putting it
lightly

i'll have my cake and eat it too

My Birthday Cake
Originally uploaded by bellaprincipessa05

happy birthday
to me.

:]

upsides:
-dinner with family and friends last night
-photo scavenger hunt today
-company
-birthday cards

hide and seek

hide and seek
Originally uploaded by phantom kitty

um. yes, i know. third post of the day.
but you know what?
IT'S MY BLOG, SUCKA! hahahahahaha
i do what i want, yo.

ok.
so what i want to do
sometime SOON
is...
play a giant game of hide and seek.

in like
the gaslamp
or downtown la jolla
or fashion valley
or something.

who's in?

and just for the record

Atardece el sol
Originally uploaded by Hernan P.

so, a teensy bit of clarification.

cuz for some reason this question
has come up a lot?

i got hired as a flood intern in may, 2008.
the internship was to officially start in
august of 2008.

plcpc was just a summer deal.

just to clarify.

:]

back to stats homework.
love how i spend my fridays.

it was...

Linne road
Originally uploaded by strobe_n

postponed.

well.

my birthday is tomorrow.

that's it.

please...watch this for me.

this video is STILL making me laugh!!

dear ___________

Letter mosaic mosaic
Originally uploaded by mag3737

dear person sitting next to me,

i am in this library to study (gasp!)
and you are asking questions
about your spanish homework.

1) you don't know that i speak spanish
(even though i do)
2) i am STUDYING
3) i am about to shove all your stuff off
of this table just to make you go away.

stop talking to me, please.
it's not my problem you crashed
the class and had 2 days to do your
homework. 2 days of which you did
not utilize. not my fault.

sincerely,
the girl you're agitating

dear statistics teacher,

why do you always bring up
gummy bears every class session?
what do they have to do with
statistics?

sincerely,
student

dear english teacher,

your potty/sexual humor and
crude profanity aren't the things
i wish to hear at 8AM in the morning.

also, do not correct me and tell me
that that it is not "mp3" but "m3p".
clearly, old man, it is not i that is
technologically challenged and not
up to date with the times.

sincerely,
the girl that gives you the stink eye
every tuesday and thursday morning

dear lady who "fixed" my bangs yesterday,

if you ever come near my hair again with
scissors, i promise you that you won't have
a job anymore. :]

sincerely,
unhappy little girl

*le sigh*

venting done.

off to child psychology to laugh.
and laugh.
and laugh.

because dr. psych lady
thinks she's super funny
which makes things more amazing.

Jesus loves you
and so do i.

but i'll love you more if you make
me cake batter cookies.

countdown: 2 more days until
i turn 19.

twitterpated

butterflies (011/365)
Originally uploaded by Katherine Elizabeth

i've got the tummy-flies
the butterflies
the fluttering
the anxiousness
the excitement
the unsure feeling

the sick feeling
that one may not mind.

i've got it.

pssst. i got asked out on a date... :X

embers and envelopes.

wall of stage technician jobs
Originally uploaded by xxblackdahlias

i wrote a letter to absolutely no one today.
it wasn't really a letter. it was kind of just
a list of questions that can only be answered
in theories, and can't really be answered
with fact.

then i burned it because i felt like some things
were better left to be theories and that i shouldn't
expect for everything to have a set answer.
and that God created everything, so no matter
why i wanted to know why, i just know that
God made it have a purpose.

so today is flood PM shift #2 out of infinity.
haha.
the joys of being an intern.
i have been at flood for 8 days straight.
either at the offices or at kearny or even
both.

so i pretty much made the whole new set
by myself. and i'm just wondering how
it looks now. i'm too judgmental of my
own work.. so i will look at it with the most
scrutinizing view.

so...tell me what you think, yeah? you can say
"veronica, you're a crap set designer" orrrr
"veronica, it looks pretty decent, actually"
cuz i do want feedback. i'm rusty with all
the tech stuff so it was weird to force myself
back into an old routine. but i liked it.

blasting music, getting crap all over my clothes
that i know probably won't come out, sawing,
gluing, painting... just creating.

anyway. i'm still super fascinated by my MBTI
categorization. i'm an INFJ. and i like
reading all the different things that the definitions
that different people write have to say.

:]

anyway.
Jesus loves you, and so do i.
i'm feeling quite giggly today so
i'm gonna go amuse myself with
something pointless for 45 minutes
before i bum rush it over to Flood.

16 Candles

16 Candles
Originally uploaded by gabegall

dear little brother:
on monday you'll be 16.
and for 5 whole days
you can say that i am only
2 years and 360 days older
than you.

but let me give you some advice,
oh young one. i am experienced
in the art of sneaking around. but
unlike you, i knew how to cover
evidence. remember: you have a
good 7inches on me in height.
and my legs are short. so when
you sneak out at night and take my
car out for a joy ride, remember the
following:
1) i am a light sleeper and i can hear
the sound of my car getting turned on.
especially since it's right under my
bedroom window.
2) put the driver's seat settings back
to where they were, readjust the mirrors,
and clean up the in n out wrappers that
you leave behind.
3)don't leave your cell phone in my
cup holder. it's a dead give away.
4)you're also notorious for hitting the
curb, hence you mis-align my tires and
the steering wheel shakes. that's not my
doing. it's all you.
and finally
5) touch my car again, and i will hurt you.

i love you very much, and i will give
you more advice throughout the year
about making it being a 16 year old,
and a junior in high school.

now go clean my car, since you made a mess.

love,
your big (little in stature) sister

cubicles.

Cubicle farm
Originally uploaded by TempletonElliott

mine is ugly
some weird shade of greyish brown
and dreary.

it needs life.

school

mar
Originally uploaded by yonosevolar

my spanish teacher likes the concept of homework and tests.

my english teacher is very opinionated, swears a lot, and likes dirty humor.

my statistics teacher is older and a mega nerd. it's cute. she gave us gummy bears.

during my break today, i have spent most of it trying to figure out who in the heck would know who i could talk to in regards to booking a screening for IC to come to mesa. and alas, no avail. but i'm not giving up.

next i have child psychology. i hope that teacher is closer to normal than my other ones.

and then i go buy books.

and then i get gas.

and then i intern.
and bug high schoolers.
and the guy named luke who play worship for flood high, cuz i can.

i attacked noel's office door with post-it notes yesterday.
very, VERY minor show of my pranking capabilities.
i just loved the constant "what the deuce?" reaction
from everyone.

um.

yeah.

love.
bye.

every touch leaves a trace

confide in me
Originally uploaded by . andré bernardo

i wonder if i'm expecting way too much to have someone help
me grow more so we can grow in Christ together
to the point where i now feel that i may be the one who
is supposed to help someone grow? that perhaps maybe
i'm the one who is supposed to be the light? to help guide
someone back on the path that God has set for them?

every touch leaves a trace.

i think i'll start leaving more traces, then.
traces of Christ's love.

but, prayer request... can you pray for me on this?
for clarity in regards to if indeed i AM supposed to
be the one who is supposed to be the light? the
one who is supposed to help guide and help
aim them in the direction to grow more?

:]

i love you.

i'm nervous

The candle burnt out long before....
Originally uploaded by jodders_898

to burn out too fast.

with all the changes the way they are going
and all that... i understand that i'm going to
work...a lot...

i'm nervous
that my own flame will burn out too quickly.

the way it looks so far in my schedules
is that the only days i will have
off are friday and saturday, but i may
even have to sacrifice my friday nights.
and saturdays don't count because i'm
gonna need sleep for the long sundays.

and my only free nights are mondays
and thursdays.

school.
intern.
schools for schools.


i understand that i have made commitments
and i have every intention of keeping them.
but....i don't want to give everything i like doing
up.

bamboo door

bamboo door
Originally uploaded by xxblackdahlias

i sent...many an e-mail yesterday for the crew retreat.
and made many a phone call.
and inputted lotsa people into the spread sheet.

saw my little sis yesterday...it was good to see her.
she does some stuff that concerns me, but i guess
as a big, i would get concerned over some stuff
that may appear to be trivial.

mom is convinced i need a vacation, so tue&wed.
i will be up in LA to do whatever for whatever reason.
it was supposed to run the entire week, but mom always
forgets to ask about my schedule, and of course, the
crew retreat is next week, so that doesn't work.

went to nado last night.
saw a lot of people.
was surprised as to how excited they were to see me.
i was taken aback.

mmk.
call me to make a playdate.
yeus.
love you.

i glimpsed a bat with butterfly wings

rainbowfighters
Originally uploaded by Sherri DuPree

oh, what marvelous things.

i don't like being perceived
as naive. orrr when people
have "holier than thou"
attitudes in regards to anything,
really.

and i hate being under estimated.

oh, people.

The American Mall is made by the
execs that made HSM. but TAM
is on MTV and not disney. and they're
both equally as cheesy.

la di da.

mmtay.

i dunno.

bye.

phil.

well, then.

Originally uploaded by kristinshaw

psych will be over today as of 1pm.
i will never have to listen to freudian
ideas and concepts. which i think
are stupid.
freud=stupid. the end. no one is
allowed to tell me other wise.

i get to have a sleep over with alisa
and alicia tonight. that will be exciting.
yay yay yay!

mm. i've been bad. i haven't made my
follow up doctor's appointment.
i should.

oh! go play on OurStage. it's fun. i promise. also, go to the side
and click on the social vibe thing. just by you clicking
around on it earns me points which earns money for
invisible children. easy, right?

ok.

well.

i have an hour before i need to leave.
so i SHOULD shower.
and get ready.
and do stuff like that.
you know?
kay.
bye.
love.

acoustics

Originally uploaded by ieve

well, for one, i love tyler hilton.
and two, i also like the acoustic
version of Belief by John Mayer
that i just bought.

i don't really have anything
interesting to say other than
the fact that i want a Loris.
it's a weird looking monkey.
and it's cute.

the end.
over and out.

activity

Originally uploaded by rachel.am.

i want to...
+participate in critical mass (won't happen till the last friday of this month)
+make it into the IC office to volunteer (it's been 2 weeks)
+nail the final i have this week for psych
+get an insane amount of work done at the Flood internship
+hang out and have friendsie time (playdates! let's make one)
+plan a day for the photo adventure that keeps getting put off
+be brave enough to cliff jump
+go to the comedy night at lestat's
+sleep enough
+hope that my body will allow me to eat normal food again
+make a follow up doctor's appointment and find out if i'm a strep carrier or not

doop dee doop.

so glad i finished the lame sauce take home test last night.

i also has a reminiscing moment...i missed doing musical theater. and i had a bunch of songs stuck in my head. mainly from Songs for a New World. i miss it. the dancing. the rehearsals. the pre-opening night rituals. the costumes. the make up. the gallons of hairspray. wishing you could snag a snack but couldn't since you were in costume. the rush of being on stage. hmm. <3

ah.
<3