levi is gone.
i can't even fathom how mike is feeling
or how jamie is feeling
or how his mom is feeling...
one tragedy brings people close
together... to hold each other up...
how long will this feeling last?
life is so fragile.
levi seemed to be the most
durable out of us all..
and now he's gone.
life is so fragile.
they're still alive out there?
i thought they disappeared?
well, according to itunes they
just released a new album...
WEIRD.
anyhoo.
i have one class i believe
i will dread every single day...
speech. why? i have to talk
in front of people. NOT COOL.
anyway, found out someone i
went to h.s. with died today.
we were classmates, but not super
close. it's a hard blow that kind of hit
me like "wow... levi... big levi is dead?"
but not to the point of tears. my prayers
go out to his family. but at least he's in
heaven now. that's good. kind of j he
gets to see God.
mm. i love you all.
"the moon and the stars declare who You are"
dr. seahorse (= trevor davis&mark suhonen) at flood today.
i am VERY excited.
school starts tomorrow.
umm.
i want coffee sessions, please.
my friend will is coming down from santa monica for a san diego day trip on friday... any suggestions as to where to take him and his friend? there's lot to do, but i am unbelievably clueless.
hmmkay. i love you, baby boo.
peter pan will always be my
most favorite disney movie.
this trip has shown me new things,
and has let this new work that God
has done in my life over the past few
weeks shine bright, stay true, and
stay rooted deep. through little events
throughout the day even to placing me
in an uncomfortable situation in which
His presence was more apparent than
anything.
i am feeling so loved, so full of love, so
in want of giving love... i wish i could put it
in better words as to how it feels to have
God's love flowing and burning through my
veins. it's incredible.
i think my last day in san francisco (being today)
will be relatively mellow. i feel like doing nothing,
resting, and packing.
i'm ready to go home, to see you... to see my
family...
but pray for me. i have a conversation planned
with my best friend (who is my ultimate polar
opposite) for when she takes me to the airport.
anyway. it's almost 7AM and i've barely slept...
so i'm gonna make sure CJ sleeps, and i'll
finish catching up on my shows.
i love you.
i fly home earlier on wednesday. i get in at 10:30AM.
wanna meet for coffee?
<3
so, i'm on my third day here in san francisco.
it indeed is fun and in two days we did more
than i have done in a week on any other
trip i have been on. it's been great to
see the best friend, but while she was in
class yesterday, it didn't take me long
to realize how much of a southern california
girl i really am. (how much of a beach bum,
honestly)
-i miss how i can go to the beach any hour of
-the day and just listen to the waves crash.
-how the weather hates being cold so i never
have to feel ridiculous if i wear a tank top.
-how i don't have to go to a bar to be entertained
(it's been an option presented to me every night
so far and i don't go) just because i know i can
go swing dance or i have plenty of friends to
do something productive with.
-how i miss my friends and family.
-i like that the homeless people in san diego keep
their distance and don't touch you and get up
in your face
-cars have a use and purpose
-concrete isn't anywhere destroying anyone's view
of this beautiful world God created
-i miss my church community
i like san francisco. shopping is great and i have
a love for cable cars now, but you know... the
suburbs here don't feel like suburbs at all. i miss
the space and i miss being able to feel i can breathe.
san francisco is so incredibly fun. you don't even
know...
but. give me san diego. heat waves and all.
i love you.
(p.s. i miss you)
friend phases?
there's so many people
i was close to just months
ago... but it feels like now
we seldom talk?
it's kind of really not fun.
why don't we talk?
...why do texts go unanswered?
did i do something?
can i fix it?
mmm.
mmk. well, back to packing.
monday:
sleep in
intern
laundry #1 (hand washables)
tuesday:
intern
coffee
drive to OC
time with friends in OC
wednesday:
day off
laundry (darks, coats, whites, lights)
berlin&v time
bank trip
pack
thursday:
first flight out from SD to San Francisco
*in San Francisco till the 21st*
then...
CJ, V, and Rob time!!!
bahahahahahha
aww. i'm gonna miss you..
but i love you.
and i'll be back :]
pray for a safe trip
love love love you.
God is working on my heart
so much and helping me be
more intentional with my actions
and how i act towards people.
it's so amazing.
pray that it continues.
<3
post.script. can i pray for you? in any way?
hey lady,
i'd like my voice back.
i'm not ariel. kthnx.
well, i leave in a
a few hours to
go on the staff
retreat for flood.
still sick, and we're
heading to pine valley.
anywhoos...have a great
next three days.
love love love <3
i can't talk.
at all. i had stuff
to do yesterday,
so the voice that i
did have got strained.
now i can't talk.
dumb people.
*le sigh*
don't attempt to call me.
only text.
i'll hang up on you.
not trying to be mean,
but it's a futile attempt
to get me to speak.
pray for my recovery?
this stuff
is my most favorite
for when i'm sick.
*le sigh*
the feverish me
is gonna try and
go back to bed.
good night.
