my jazz teacher kicked my butt today.
the stretches hurt...
the super simplistic across the floors
were complicated...
the speed of the dance was easy for me to
keep up with..
and my muscles are screaming.
but it feels so good.
i never realized how much i missed
it...
*le sigh*
my legs hurt.
haha.
but its the kind of pain
you enjoy... you know?
Thursday, January 31, 2008
Wednesday, January 30, 2008
post script
old habits die hard.
it's really hard for me
to not flirt back or do
something of that sort.
ahhhhhhh
it's not something
i'm gonna let win, though.
nope nope nope.
it's really hard for me
to not flirt back or do
something of that sort.
ahhhhhhh
it's not something
i'm gonna let win, though.
nope nope nope.
my brain is fried
not even half way done with my statistics homework.
i'm in for a night.
...BREAK TIME!
1. How many people have you kissed in the past 6 months?
you're secretly hoping i get some form of mono, aren't you?
2. What's your middle name?
Alessandra
3. Would you rather spend the whole day with your mom or your dad?
daddy.
4. Where were you 12 hours ago?
my vehicle
5. Is it easy for others to make you feel awkward?
after being friends with cj? nope.
6. Do you know what you are going to wear tomorrow?
my birthday suit, of course
7. What serial killer do you find most disturbing?
the zodiac.
apparently when some planet goes retrograde, all hell breaks loose.
...sigh... stupid people. haha.
9. Does anyone hate you for no reason?
i don't know, nor do i care...
10. Do you hate your boyfriend/girlfriends ex?
not at all
11. How many hours of sleep did you get last night?
not enough
12. Is your life simple or complicated?
as of right now, it is quite simple.
13. Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?
to meet Jesus, yes.
14. What are your favorite colors?
the "s" should be in parenthesis.
but i like teal.
15. How many times have you kissed the last person you kissed?
your conspiracy game isn't working.
16. Do you know anyone who lives in Wyoming?
no. i know someone who's from there, but obviously
nothing goes on in poor wyoming.
17. Have you ever kissed someone whose name starts with a J?
si sabes, sabes. si no, no te preocupes.
18. Have you ever passed out from drinking too much?
negatory
19. What are you doing tomorrow?
school. home. la jolla.
20. Are you easily confused?
uhhhh if it is anything mathematical, then yes
21. Do you think you would make a good parent?
kids are cute... if they're not mine.
22. Where are you?
my living quarters
23. What was your last place of employment?
photography by michele. but i like my current employer.
24. Are you taller than 5'4"?
no.
25. Have you ever liked someone who treated you badly?
no. i don't tolerate any of that.
26. Is your current hair color mostly your natural hair color?
always has been
27. What color are your socks?
bare feet.
28. Has anyone ever borrowed something from you and never returned it?
yeah.
29. Do you fall for people easily?
no.
30. True or False? Everything happens for a reason:
true.
31. Have you ever dated someone more than once?
nope.
32. Who have you texted today?
daniel and lau and my dad
33. What was the reason behind the last time you cried?
hurtful words
34. Have you ever liked anyone on your top?
top what.
35. Do you find members of the opposite sex confusing?
who doesn't?
36. Is there anybody you wish you could be with right now?
amigos.
37. Are you in love?
with Jesus? yessir.
38. What are you listening to right now?
silence
39. How has the week been?
long. i could have sworn today was thursday.
40. Is there something you wish you could tell someone, but cant?
uhhhh not at the moment
41. Where is the boy/girl you like now?
heaven.
42. What were you doing Friday night?
swing dancinggggg
43. Name what you did yesterday?
uhmm school. starbucks. school. starbucks. passed out at home. woO!
44. Last person you text messaged?
nadie.
45. Who was the last person to call you?
daddy
46. What are you doing right now?
taking a brain break. i think it's crying right now.
47. Next time you travel out of the country, where will it be?
australia, hopefully.
if not, london!
48. What color are your eyes?
dark brown
49. Are you allergic to anything?
some antibiotics. cleaning products. seafood. grass. dairy.
PVC. that's all i can think of at the moment.
50. Are you dating the last person you kissed?
no
51. Last place you ordered food from?
robek's
52. Who was the last person you shared a bed with?
i shared a couch with lauren
53. What color is your hair?
same color it has always been
55. Will you kiss the last person you kissed again?
no
56. Who knows a secret or two about you?
a select few
57. When was the last time you lied?
while ago
58. Do you like fire?
yes
59. Did you have a nap today?
tried. but having two little dogs jumping on you and a big dog licking your face makes it a lot harder to sleep.
60. What was your first job, and how long did you work there?
six months of being a photographer's beezy
i'm in for a night.
...BREAK TIME!
1. How many people have you kissed in the past 6 months?
you're secretly hoping i get some form of mono, aren't you?
2. What's your middle name?
Alessandra
3. Would you rather spend the whole day with your mom or your dad?
daddy.
4. Where were you 12 hours ago?
my vehicle
5. Is it easy for others to make you feel awkward?
after being friends with cj? nope.
6. Do you know what you are going to wear tomorrow?
my birthday suit, of course
7. What serial killer do you find most disturbing?
the zodiac.
apparently when some planet goes retrograde, all hell breaks loose.
...sigh... stupid people. haha.
9. Does anyone hate you for no reason?
i don't know, nor do i care...
10. Do you hate your boyfriend/girlfriends ex?
not at all
11. How many hours of sleep did you get last night?
not enough
12. Is your life simple or complicated?
as of right now, it is quite simple.
13. Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?
to meet Jesus, yes.
14. What are your favorite colors?
the "s" should be in parenthesis.
but i like teal.
15. How many times have you kissed the last person you kissed?
your conspiracy game isn't working.
16. Do you know anyone who lives in Wyoming?
no. i know someone who's from there, but obviously
nothing goes on in poor wyoming.
17. Have you ever kissed someone whose name starts with a J?
si sabes, sabes. si no, no te preocupes.
18. Have you ever passed out from drinking too much?
negatory
19. What are you doing tomorrow?
school. home. la jolla.
20. Are you easily confused?
uhhhh if it is anything mathematical, then yes
21. Do you think you would make a good parent?
kids are cute... if they're not mine.
22. Where are you?
my living quarters
23. What was your last place of employment?
photography by michele. but i like my current employer.
24. Are you taller than 5'4"?
no.
25. Have you ever liked someone who treated you badly?
no. i don't tolerate any of that.
26. Is your current hair color mostly your natural hair color?
always has been
27. What color are your socks?
bare feet.
28. Has anyone ever borrowed something from you and never returned it?
yeah.
29. Do you fall for people easily?
no.
30. True or False? Everything happens for a reason:
true.
31. Have you ever dated someone more than once?
nope.
32. Who have you texted today?
daniel and lau and my dad
33. What was the reason behind the last time you cried?
hurtful words
34. Have you ever liked anyone on your top?
top what.
35. Do you find members of the opposite sex confusing?
who doesn't?
36. Is there anybody you wish you could be with right now?
amigos.
37. Are you in love?
with Jesus? yessir.
38. What are you listening to right now?
silence
39. How has the week been?
long. i could have sworn today was thursday.
40. Is there something you wish you could tell someone, but cant?
uhhhh not at the moment
41. Where is the boy/girl you like now?
heaven.
42. What were you doing Friday night?
swing dancinggggg
43. Name what you did yesterday?
uhmm school. starbucks. school. starbucks. passed out at home. woO!
44. Last person you text messaged?
nadie.
45. Who was the last person to call you?
daddy
46. What are you doing right now?
taking a brain break. i think it's crying right now.
47. Next time you travel out of the country, where will it be?
australia, hopefully.
if not, london!
48. What color are your eyes?
dark brown
49. Are you allergic to anything?
some antibiotics. cleaning products. seafood. grass. dairy.
PVC. that's all i can think of at the moment.
50. Are you dating the last person you kissed?
no
51. Last place you ordered food from?
robek's
52. Who was the last person you shared a bed with?
i shared a couch with lauren
53. What color is your hair?
same color it has always been
55. Will you kiss the last person you kissed again?
no
56. Who knows a secret or two about you?
a select few
57. When was the last time you lied?
while ago
58. Do you like fire?
yes
59. Did you have a nap today?
tried. but having two little dogs jumping on you and a big dog licking your face makes it a lot harder to sleep.
60. What was your first job, and how long did you work there?
six months of being a photographer's beezy
Tuesday, January 29, 2008
Sunday, January 27, 2008
simplistic words
my senior english teacher probably had to be
the best teacher that anyone could ever have.
there was only one due date for all your work.
all your tests were open note and open book.
and the teacher herself was nurturing and like
a second mother to many.
i have never, ever heard anyone say "i hate oxford".
what i loved most about her class was that her
projects were very outside the box, and that
in each project, she found a way to implement
personal elements very discreetly. she forced every
student to discover more of themselves and helped
many of us grow to be better people.
on every project presentation day, she revealed the
purpose of one of the project rules. there was always
one very, very strange rule in each one.
one project showed us how we learn best.
another helped us discover what personality type we have.
another showed us how we prefer to work
or what our discussion preference is.
it was like one giant personality analysis class hidden
behind the english curriculum, yet we all still managed
to learn about Oedipius Rex, Hamlet, Candide, and many
of the other stories.
what i loved most is that she showed us that our parents
are always going to be our number one team mates, despite
what the vast majority of us had thought. she taught us that
we needed to keep them involved, and that if it wasn't a direct
blood line family member, it could even be a surrogate parent
of sorts.
and if you know me well enough, you will know that i have been
fighting to break a chain of mother-daughter hatred in my family.
it has been a tradition for generations upon generations. and if you
know me extremely well, you know that my mom and i have had
a not-so-great history, to say the very least.
for our last assignment, we had to write a tribute letter to our
parents. my dad got a four page letter telling how much i
appreciate how he's been there for me, supported me, and how
i love him for all the risks he has taken just to make me happy
including going behind my mother's back, many a time.
my mom's letter on the other hand, was a twelve page letter, front
and back, where i let go of seventeen years of pain, sorrow, & rage onto simple pieces
of paper. only the last page of the letter thanked her for finally starting
to see the light that i was seeing, and for finally accepting me for who i was.
my english teacher mailed them off to our respected families at their respected
addresses.
two weeks later she hands each of us an envelope and tells us that they are
responses to our letters. from none other than our parents.
i saved mine.
and i love how my mom was the one to write one to me.
she said sorry.
...my mom never tells me that she's sorry.
and she told me that she was willing to
help me break this horrid chain.
it told me how much she actually
regretted everything she ever did to me,
everything she ever put on me,
and everything she had ever said to me.
she told me how she wished she could
heal those invisible scars that she herself
had given me, and knows herself that they
probably will never heal.
and she told me she knew i was ...partying...
to put it kindly, and she told me that God
wouldn't be happy. and that day i stopped.
ever since i was eleven, when i had to endure
a battle that kids should never in their life
have to experience, i became hard and cold.
i didn't cry. i was angry. and a few years later
i fell into a bout of depression.
my mom let me get a new start on life when she
allowed me to transfer high schools.
and this letter finally broke that wall that i had
let myself be surrounded by.
i cried for the first time in a long time that day.
right in the middle of class.
only two of my friends and my english teacher
understood why.
she announced to the class that i was the example
of why she had students write tribute letters.
and with my permission, she read a xerox'd
copy of some of the things i had written to my mom
and what she had written back to me.
those students who were ignorant and made a joke
out of the assignment immediately felt like idiots
when they realized how powerful words could be.
all i can say is, thank you, mrs. b.
you helped me release 17 years of unbearable pain.
and you helped me realize that despite it all, someone
here on earth does love me. and i thank you, for reminding
me on a daily basis that God loves me too.
and ever since that day, simple words of love and adoration
make me tear up. i feel like i am weak now, but i know that
i never want to build a wall around myself like that ever again.
the best teacher that anyone could ever have.
there was only one due date for all your work.
all your tests were open note and open book.
and the teacher herself was nurturing and like
a second mother to many.
i have never, ever heard anyone say "i hate oxford".
what i loved most about her class was that her
projects were very outside the box, and that
in each project, she found a way to implement
personal elements very discreetly. she forced every
student to discover more of themselves and helped
many of us grow to be better people.
on every project presentation day, she revealed the
purpose of one of the project rules. there was always
one very, very strange rule in each one.
one project showed us how we learn best.
another helped us discover what personality type we have.
another showed us how we prefer to work
or what our discussion preference is.
it was like one giant personality analysis class hidden
behind the english curriculum, yet we all still managed
to learn about Oedipius Rex, Hamlet, Candide, and many
of the other stories.
what i loved most is that she showed us that our parents
are always going to be our number one team mates, despite
what the vast majority of us had thought. she taught us that
we needed to keep them involved, and that if it wasn't a direct
blood line family member, it could even be a surrogate parent
of sorts.
and if you know me well enough, you will know that i have been
fighting to break a chain of mother-daughter hatred in my family.
it has been a tradition for generations upon generations. and if you
know me extremely well, you know that my mom and i have had
a not-so-great history, to say the very least.
for our last assignment, we had to write a tribute letter to our
parents. my dad got a four page letter telling how much i
appreciate how he's been there for me, supported me, and how
i love him for all the risks he has taken just to make me happy
including going behind my mother's back, many a time.
my mom's letter on the other hand, was a twelve page letter, front
and back, where i let go of seventeen years of pain, sorrow, & rage onto simple pieces
of paper. only the last page of the letter thanked her for finally starting
to see the light that i was seeing, and for finally accepting me for who i was.
my english teacher mailed them off to our respected families at their respected
addresses.
two weeks later she hands each of us an envelope and tells us that they are
responses to our letters. from none other than our parents.
i saved mine.
and i love how my mom was the one to write one to me.
she said sorry.
...my mom never tells me that she's sorry.
and she told me that she was willing to
help me break this horrid chain.
it told me how much she actually
regretted everything she ever did to me,
everything she ever put on me,
and everything she had ever said to me.
she told me how she wished she could
heal those invisible scars that she herself
had given me, and knows herself that they
probably will never heal.
and she told me she knew i was ...partying...
to put it kindly, and she told me that God
wouldn't be happy. and that day i stopped.
ever since i was eleven, when i had to endure
a battle that kids should never in their life
have to experience, i became hard and cold.
i didn't cry. i was angry. and a few years later
i fell into a bout of depression.
my mom let me get a new start on life when she
allowed me to transfer high schools.
and this letter finally broke that wall that i had
let myself be surrounded by.
i cried for the first time in a long time that day.
right in the middle of class.
only two of my friends and my english teacher
understood why.
she announced to the class that i was the example
of why she had students write tribute letters.
and with my permission, she read a xerox'd
copy of some of the things i had written to my mom
and what she had written back to me.
those students who were ignorant and made a joke
out of the assignment immediately felt like idiots
when they realized how powerful words could be.
all i can say is, thank you, mrs. b.
you helped me release 17 years of unbearable pain.
and you helped me realize that despite it all, someone
here on earth does love me. and i thank you, for reminding
me on a daily basis that God loves me too.
and ever since that day, simple words of love and adoration
make me tear up. i feel like i am weak now, but i know that
i never want to build a wall around myself like that ever again.
Saturday, January 26, 2008
night drive
one thing to know about me... if you want me to be instantaneously calmed&serene, get me anywhere near an ocean. best tranquilizer there is. and probably the most beautiful thing in the world to me.i like to go sometimes and get off on the torrey pines state reserve exit and begin on a miraculous drive up the historic pacific coast highway, also known as highway 101. it's kind of my thing to do by myself or with company. i like to drive and admire how God plays with color and creation. i think the coast and the skyline combined make the most beautiful sight in the world. and i love how man can't ever properly recreate it. even for movies, they have to super impose and image of the ocean that was taken with a camera. :]
on the drive up to irvine i hadn't realized that we were driving by camp pendleton until i looked to my left for a quick second and saw nothing but pure black. i remembered that the ocean was there and it just set me at peace. i don't know what it is, but yeah... i love it.
call me beach bum, i guess. :] if it fits.
swing dancing last night at atomic is exactly what the doctor ordered to remedy a less than satisfactory week, & with lauren for company, it was more than i could have asked for. always great company, great conversation, toss in enough sass and sarcasm, and you've got a full proof great time.
i complain about driving a lot on the outside. but i never care. i love driving.
and i'd prefer it be me driving all the time... for other reasons than the fact
that i like it.
*sigh* i'm content.
happy factors:
- my dad
- atomic
- long drives
- the coast
- God's creations
- night time
- slumber parties
- Lauren
- falling asleep to John Mayer
Friday, January 25, 2008
besides
i figure, why let one little trip cancellation ruin my weekend?
and i figure out whyyyyy my stomach area hurt so badly last night.
i had a latte... and dummy me decided to ignore the fact that i had
my lactaid medsss in my purse and i kind of, sort of, refused to take.
dairy=pain
the pain=my digestive system attempting to digest lactose
when my body doesn't produce lactase, the chemical
that breaks down lactose...
talk about major ouchie factor, right there.
i have this need to travel. i mean, i know i'm going to seattle over
spring break, but i want to go on drives... find things to do in san diego
other than the obvious things to do... i want to make it damn near impossible
for myself to say "there's nothing to do!" when in reality, there's so many
options.... i kind of ignore them.
i want to explore orange county and parts of LA in hopes of finding more
fun.... i've got an itchin' for explorin'.
hmm. adding that to my list of goals for the year.
note to the general public:
if i hang out with you and we go anywhere where i may
possibly consume some sort of dairy product, remind me
that i need to take my pillz.
thank you.
<3
and i figure out whyyyyy my stomach area hurt so badly last night.
i had a latte... and dummy me decided to ignore the fact that i had
my lactaid medsss in my purse and i kind of, sort of, refused to take.
dairy=pain
the pain=my digestive system attempting to digest lactose
when my body doesn't produce lactase, the chemical
that breaks down lactose...
talk about major ouchie factor, right there.
i have this need to travel. i mean, i know i'm going to seattle over
spring break, but i want to go on drives... find things to do in san diego
other than the obvious things to do... i want to make it damn near impossible
for myself to say "there's nothing to do!" when in reality, there's so many
options.... i kind of ignore them.
i want to explore orange county and parts of LA in hopes of finding more
fun.... i've got an itchin' for explorin'.
hmm. adding that to my list of goals for the year.
note to the general public:
if i hang out with you and we go anywhere where i may
possibly consume some sort of dairy product, remind me
that i need to take my pillz.
thank you.
<3
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
mmm someone should help meee :]
soooo i'm going to big bear on friday and staying into saturdayyy
&&& i don't have snow chainsss
does anyone know someone who might have then that i could borrow?
i am excited. i've never seen snow before! this is exciting.
&&& i don't have snow chainsss
does anyone know someone who might have then that i could borrow?
i am excited. i've never seen snow before! this is exciting.
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
all systems are go
planning a trip is gonna be weird.
at least my dad is willing to help.
hello, seattle!
at least my dad is willing to help.
hello, seattle!
pch 101
so far, my life has been full of blessings.thank you, God. i couldn't be more content.
i talked to my friend ryan on sunday and i have yet
to fulfill my promise of visiting him up in Cal Poly SLO. i actually really want to take the drive. a good three hours of it is just straight up the coast.
i need to get cracking on that planning&on getting my idea to take a trip to Seattle approved.
+drive to san luis obispo
+get a campus tour of UC Berkley
+visit CJ up in san francisco
+just go on a general drive up the coast... even if it's just to newport beach or something like that
+go to the quail botanical gardens up in encinitas
+start planning a trip to australia
+figure out a way to go back to london
+seattle
+another julian trip
Monday, January 21, 2008
&the doctor says
i:
a) have eczema that is caused by my shoddy immune system AND an allergic reaction to CLEANING PRODUCTS... of all things, cleaning products.
now my list of allergies includes your common sanitizers.
and i got allergy tested to find out my level of lactose intolerance
and it is moderate...
and i was "prescribed" and OTC medication... fun.
allergies:
certain antibiotics
grass
lactose intolerant
all seafood
cleaning products
dust from PVC
*joy*
oh well. today wasn't that bad other than the doctor visit.
good things:
-got to see antonio, who i haven't seen in a while... ironically at the pharmacy of kaiser
-tips
-getting my car back
-grocery shopping for healthy food with my dad
-waffles
-supplies for baking cookies
-good&heartfelt chats at the sand household
a) have eczema that is caused by my shoddy immune system AND an allergic reaction to CLEANING PRODUCTS... of all things, cleaning products.
now my list of allergies includes your common sanitizers.
and i got allergy tested to find out my level of lactose intolerance
and it is moderate...
and i was "prescribed" and OTC medication... fun.
allergies:
certain antibiotics
grass
lactose intolerant
all seafood
cleaning products
dust from PVC
*joy*
oh well. today wasn't that bad other than the doctor visit.
good things:
-got to see antonio, who i haven't seen in a while... ironically at the pharmacy of kaiser
-tips
-getting my car back
-grocery shopping for healthy food with my dad
-waffles
-supplies for baking cookies
-good&heartfelt chats at the sand household
it's my baby
that's not MY car, but a picture of the same model of the kind of car i have.
i really hope i get it back from the dealership today. it would make me very, very happy.
i mean, yeah, my mom's RX has fancy knick knacks, but it doesn't drive the same.
and it's HUGE! hahaha. so not a fan of SUVs.
*le sigh*
someone got let go at work and everyone was re-assigned shifts.
and guess who closes wednesday night?
me.
NOT COOL.
*le sigh* again.
Sunday, January 20, 2008
illusions
when God writes your love story feels like it is pulling on my every heart string.Julian was a lot of fun yesterday. Candance, Dan, and Lauren were perfect company. it was a bit colder than i expected it to be, but it was a great way to complete the day.
i bought myself a little book a few weeks ago called Promises for a Jesus Freak that i now cannot leave behind. i keep it in my purse because it comes in handy more than i thought it would be. since i let my heart get caught up in recent happenings, i didn't really know what the best book of the Bible would be to read... but what i love about Promises is that there's sections throughout the entire book where there are Bible verses for just the right time. and there's one section for dealing with a broken heart simply titled Emotional Healing. my favorite two are:
My health may fail, and my spirit may grow weak, but God remains the strength of my heart; he is mine forever.
Psalm 73:26
&&
You can throw the whole weight of your anxieties upon him, for you are his personal concern.
1 Peter 5:7
i like having that little book... with scripture that's easy access for whatever the reason may be.
and Promises couldn't have been titled any better than it has been.
i want to go on another trip to Julian.
and i want to go on a drive up the coast...
would anyone like to join me?
Friday, January 18, 2008
momma jody's words of truth and comfort
heidi's mom offered me words of comfort
and truth last night.
she told me that i shouldn't even want to
be with someone who didn't think i was
wonderful, anyway.
&&that's the truth. God has a guy out there
who, no matter what, will think i'm amazing
even when i'm not my best, when i fail, when
i mess up, and even when i wake up first
thing in the morning looking super gross.
and in the meantime, i have enough AMAZING
friends that LOVE me, anyway.
today will hopefully be a better day.
i mean, if everything else sucks...
at least i'm getting office 08 for my mac.
with something bad, comes something good.
ok. it's 7:39 AM and i could totally be in bed
sleeping in on my day off.
call me to make plans...
i just can't hang out that late
because i, as always, am opening
tomorrow morning.
and sunday morning.
i'm opening.
period. haha.
love you all.
and truth last night.
she told me that i shouldn't even want to
be with someone who didn't think i was
wonderful, anyway.
&&that's the truth. God has a guy out there
who, no matter what, will think i'm amazing
even when i'm not my best, when i fail, when
i mess up, and even when i wake up first
thing in the morning looking super gross.
and in the meantime, i have enough AMAZING
friends that LOVE me, anyway.
today will hopefully be a better day.
i mean, if everything else sucks...
at least i'm getting office 08 for my mac.
with something bad, comes something good.
ok. it's 7:39 AM and i could totally be in bed
sleeping in on my day off.
call me to make plans...
i just can't hang out that late
because i, as always, am opening
tomorrow morning.
and sunday morning.
i'm opening.
period. haha.
love you all.
Thursday, January 17, 2008
how is it
that i manage to mess something up
that i thought was going so well?
i guess i'm not worth it.
or so i'm told.
all i said was that i wish
said person would just put
a teensy bit more input/effort...
so it wouldn't always have to be me
visiting or coming up with ideas on
what do to...
i love that person's company...
but
i guess i'm not worth it.
this sucks...
:(
i need a pick me up, badly..
and sadly, this mood puts me
in a funk and i don't even want
to swing tonight.
that i thought was going so well?
i guess i'm not worth it.
or so i'm told.
all i said was that i wish
said person would just put
a teensy bit more input/effort...
so it wouldn't always have to be me
visiting or coming up with ideas on
what do to...
i love that person's company...
but
i guess i'm not worth it.
this sucks...
:(
i need a pick me up, badly..
and sadly, this mood puts me
in a funk and i don't even want
to swing tonight.
Tuesday, January 15, 2008
post script
i'm also debating getting a tattoo.
or two. if i can get what i want
implemented into one design,
then everything will rock...
i want to get a dove&the trinity knot.
yeahh...
:]
opinions?
or two. if i can get what i want
implemented into one design,
then everything will rock...
i want to get a dove&the trinity knot.
yeahh...
:]
opinions?
darling.
woke up this morning to find that my mom's dog, the little puppy, has now decided to go French... and why, you ask, might i say such a thing?
oh... it is because i stepped in something sticky this morning... and only proceeded to find
remains of snails all over the living room. she's lucky she's a cute little brat or i would have been
wayy more irked than i really was.
other than that, everything is dandy.
pluses:
+i finished all seven seasons of gilmore girls
+i have started When God Writes Your Love Story and so far, i love it
+swing dancing tonight
+very good tips this week.... $30 for twelve hours?? THANK YOU.
+wonderful plans for every day of this week with wonderful people
+the quote from one of the last episodes of gilmore girls that "hatchbacks are SUV's with an inferiority complex" i found it amusinggg
i couldn't ask for anything more.
love, to all.
oh... it is because i stepped in something sticky this morning... and only proceeded to find
remains of snails all over the living room. she's lucky she's a cute little brat or i would have been
wayy more irked than i really was.
other than that, everything is dandy.
pluses:
+i finished all seven seasons of gilmore girls
+i have started When God Writes Your Love Story and so far, i love it
+swing dancing tonight
+very good tips this week.... $30 for twelve hours?? THANK YOU.
+wonderful plans for every day of this week with wonderful people
+the quote from one of the last episodes of gilmore girls that "hatchbacks are SUV's with an inferiority complex" i found it amusinggg
i couldn't ask for anything more.
love, to all.
Sunday, January 13, 2008
football. plain and simple.
well, i thought it was funny when i heard that tony romo's
girlfriend, jessica simpson, was asked NOT to come to their
games because she is a distraction/bad luck.
and
i also have come to the conclusion that
i don't like chargers fans.
the end.
girlfriend, jessica simpson, was asked NOT to come to their
games because she is a distraction/bad luck.
and
i also have come to the conclusion that
i don't like chargers fans.
the end.
Friday, January 11, 2008
a new affinity
i'm really digging rosemary clooney
right now.... vocally, she is very talented.
but i want to know who sings that
"bella, bella" song that has the
crazy tempo changes that we swing
dance to.... i want to download it!
haha.
**sway by rosemary clooney
ugh. note to self.... never lift boxes
at starbucks.
the end.
right now.... vocally, she is very talented.
but i want to know who sings that
"bella, bella" song that has the
crazy tempo changes that we swing
dance to.... i want to download it!
haha.
**sway by rosemary clooney
ugh. note to self.... never lift boxes
at starbucks.
the end.
blow a few kisses and give a few hugs
i was a top notch flirt
and last night, that's
all i could do with jeff...
even though jamon and i
are kinda starting to date...
wtheck is wrong with meee
old habits die hard..
and i'm just going to have
to kill it faster, i guess!
and last night, that's
all i could do with jeff...
even though jamon and i
are kinda starting to date...
wtheck is wrong with meee
old habits die hard..
and i'm just going to have
to kill it faster, i guess!
Tuesday, January 8, 2008
spring break '08
i absolutely love traveling.
last year for spring break we went
to florida. the year before i got to
go to NYC with my school. the year
prior to that was hawaii. and before
that was florida, again, for show choir...
before that was japan... before that was
south korea.... lol. i love going places!
and those were just the places that i've
visited over spring break.
hopefully seattle works out for the best
for spring break. i'm still checking on
dates for when break is, and i'm hoping
it works itself out. it'd be fun to go on a trip
with lauren somewhere... and it'd be fun
to actually get to visit seattle for a little
while longer than two days like i did before...
:]
Saturday, January 5, 2008
gilmoreee
everyone can have jess, dean, and naked guy.
i pick logan.
see? the blondie? yeah.. he's keeeeyoooooot.
hawtie mc hawtie.
Friday, January 4, 2008
it don't mean a thing
swing dancing is probably one of my new
favorite things to do. scratch the probably..
it is one of my new favorite things to do.
i had fun. heidi had fun. thank you, lauren.
i'm looking forward to the atomic ballroom.
*
had a heated discussion the other night with
a said someone. apparently i give into things.
apparently i can't defend myself. and apparently
i'm not good at doing things the way i want to
just because i was raised differently because oh,
i don't know... i have parents from a different
country. things for me are just a *bit* different..
but apparently that makes me weak.... because
when i follow things the way i was taught to makes
me someone who gives in... all the time... because
i can't decide for myself. that made me angry. that
was a discussion with someone who i now find to
be extremely ignorant. age is just a number. it does
not bring wisdom... it just brings decay... for
some at least. i feel that wisdom is learned through
discussion, experience, and respect... but you know,
not everyone is fortunate enough to grasp certain
concepts. all i can say is that i was happy i cut things
off and that i am happy that i listened to my dad and
respected his wishes because this "heated discussion", if you will
only showed me how much respect this said person
really has for me and anything i have to say.
*
i've been working on watching all the gilmore girls seasons.
it's quite exciting. i'm on season 5, disc 2 of 6. only 20 more
discs to do.
*
jamon comes home tomorrow. i'm getting him from the airport.
*
i bought a devotional book today. i am excited about it and for it.
God Bless.
<3
favorite things to do. scratch the probably..
it is one of my new favorite things to do.
i had fun. heidi had fun. thank you, lauren.
i'm looking forward to the atomic ballroom.
*
had a heated discussion the other night with
a said someone. apparently i give into things.
apparently i can't defend myself. and apparently
i'm not good at doing things the way i want to
just because i was raised differently because oh,
i don't know... i have parents from a different
country. things for me are just a *bit* different..
but apparently that makes me weak.... because
when i follow things the way i was taught to makes
me someone who gives in... all the time... because
i can't decide for myself. that made me angry. that
was a discussion with someone who i now find to
be extremely ignorant. age is just a number. it does
not bring wisdom... it just brings decay... for
some at least. i feel that wisdom is learned through
discussion, experience, and respect... but you know,
not everyone is fortunate enough to grasp certain
concepts. all i can say is that i was happy i cut things
off and that i am happy that i listened to my dad and
respected his wishes because this "heated discussion", if you will
only showed me how much respect this said person
really has for me and anything i have to say.
*
i've been working on watching all the gilmore girls seasons.
it's quite exciting. i'm on season 5, disc 2 of 6. only 20 more
discs to do.
*
jamon comes home tomorrow. i'm getting him from the airport.
*
i bought a devotional book today. i am excited about it and for it.
God Bless.
<3
Thursday, January 3, 2008
three
today was the day i was to get my 3rd review.
you get reviews every six months.
i was kind of nervous because i had no idea
how well or how badly i was doing.
so my manager sat me down and started
to tell me how glad she was i came to the store.
she then proceeded to tell me that she couldn't
fill out my review form because i hadn't been at
the store long enough. of course when she told me
that, i automatically thought... great.. no pay raise.
but she then proceeded to tell me that she and the
DM had talked and they both decided that i was
trust worthy enough to fill out my own review sheet.
that i would get to be one of the few to give myself an
evaluation.
the highest you can get score-wise on a review is a 3..
3- exceeds expectations
2-meets expectations
1-needs improvement
it's hard to get a three and it's hard to get a one, because if you
are getting mostly ones, you're not starbucks material.
so after my manager walked me over the process on how to rate
myself, she let me get to work.
i gave myself mostly twos, two 1's, two 3's.
after i gave my manager my review sheet back, she looked it
over and gave a big sigh..
i asked her what was up and she told me
"you're not two material, veronica."
and right then, i felt like i rated myself way too high..
but she continued,
"in the little while that you have been here, you have
been able to keep a shift running like clockwork, and
if i were to leave you alone, i bet you that you'd be
able to man a whole 8-hour shift on your own and STILL
meet the Starbucks Core Standards. you are not two material.
i'm going to change more of these to threes."
i'm still kind of in shock.
but it's pretty cool, i guess.
i practically closed the store by myself last night.
my assistant manager was in charge and while she
set up the promo, the other two closers were just taking
their time... i had everything cleaned, washed, stocked,
locked up, marked out, prepped, and whatever else
that needed to be done for a closing shift done by 7:45.
i started my shift at 3pm and didn't start shutting
stuff down until about 5pm.
:] i'm proud of myself...
next steps are getting my black apron
and getting my learning coach certification.
it may just seem like starbucks babble, but hey...
it's cool to me.
you get reviews every six months.
i was kind of nervous because i had no idea
how well or how badly i was doing.
so my manager sat me down and started
to tell me how glad she was i came to the store.
she then proceeded to tell me that she couldn't
fill out my review form because i hadn't been at
the store long enough. of course when she told me
that, i automatically thought... great.. no pay raise.
but she then proceeded to tell me that she and the
DM had talked and they both decided that i was
trust worthy enough to fill out my own review sheet.
that i would get to be one of the few to give myself an
evaluation.
the highest you can get score-wise on a review is a 3..
3- exceeds expectations
2-meets expectations
1-needs improvement
it's hard to get a three and it's hard to get a one, because if you
are getting mostly ones, you're not starbucks material.
so after my manager walked me over the process on how to rate
myself, she let me get to work.
i gave myself mostly twos, two 1's, two 3's.
after i gave my manager my review sheet back, she looked it
over and gave a big sigh..
i asked her what was up and she told me
"you're not two material, veronica."
and right then, i felt like i rated myself way too high..
but she continued,
"in the little while that you have been here, you have
been able to keep a shift running like clockwork, and
if i were to leave you alone, i bet you that you'd be
able to man a whole 8-hour shift on your own and STILL
meet the Starbucks Core Standards. you are not two material.
i'm going to change more of these to threes."
i'm still kind of in shock.
but it's pretty cool, i guess.
i practically closed the store by myself last night.
my assistant manager was in charge and while she
set up the promo, the other two closers were just taking
their time... i had everything cleaned, washed, stocked,
locked up, marked out, prepped, and whatever else
that needed to be done for a closing shift done by 7:45.
i started my shift at 3pm and didn't start shutting
stuff down until about 5pm.
:] i'm proud of myself...
next steps are getting my black apron
and getting my learning coach certification.
it may just seem like starbucks babble, but hey...
it's cool to me.
Tuesday, January 1, 2008
i am what you see
"I am what you see
I am not what they say
But if I turned out to be
Could you love me anyway
Standing anonymous
Hoping your heart will just
Wake up and ask for me by name
Maybe someday will ask for me by name
Just not today "
You'll Ask For Me-Tyler Hilton
Lauren showed me something pretty cool. And I have a feeling I'm going to follow it more strictly, too. I have kind of changed my ways from how I was in high school and such... but yeah.
Guys were made to pursue.
I should focus on turning hearts, and not so much turning heads. In the end, the heard it what really matters.
And as far as I am concerned, I am also taken... my relationship is with Jesus.
If a guy wants me, he'll pursue me. And so far, so good.
Part of why I hadn't dated in over a year is because I never wanted to be in one of those temporary relationships. One of those things that only lasted for a few months in high school and never really mattered. The whole purpose of dating is so you can find the person you were meant to be with.
I'm giving it all to God now. He knows who I am supposed to be with, and if they want me, they'll pursue me. I have been SO done with throwing myself out there, dressing in a way that was appealing to the opposite sex...
I mean, they should find me pretty even when I am wearing my glasses, sweats, a baggy t-shirt, and a hoodie. Like I said before.... I now want to turn hearts, not so much turn heads....
I already have my other goals set for this year, as posted earlier...
I just have decided to add this one, because it is too good.
I had a decent time this new years. The AGO guys are great, as are Lux and Venitian. And I alway slove hanging out with Lauren :]
I'm pretty stoked to go swing dancing this Thursday.
I have a review this week... :/
I hope that goes well!
anyway, God bless!
i'm beat... i never knew deep cleaning a room could be so draining.
<3
I am not what they say
But if I turned out to be
Could you love me anyway
Standing anonymous
Hoping your heart will just
Wake up and ask for me by name
Maybe someday will ask for me by name
Just not today "
You'll Ask For Me-Tyler Hilton
Lauren showed me something pretty cool. And I have a feeling I'm going to follow it more strictly, too. I have kind of changed my ways from how I was in high school and such... but yeah.
Guys were made to pursue.
I should focus on turning hearts, and not so much turning heads. In the end, the heard it what really matters.
And as far as I am concerned, I am also taken... my relationship is with Jesus.
If a guy wants me, he'll pursue me. And so far, so good.
Part of why I hadn't dated in over a year is because I never wanted to be in one of those temporary relationships. One of those things that only lasted for a few months in high school and never really mattered. The whole purpose of dating is so you can find the person you were meant to be with.
I'm giving it all to God now. He knows who I am supposed to be with, and if they want me, they'll pursue me. I have been SO done with throwing myself out there, dressing in a way that was appealing to the opposite sex...
I mean, they should find me pretty even when I am wearing my glasses, sweats, a baggy t-shirt, and a hoodie. Like I said before.... I now want to turn hearts, not so much turn heads....
I already have my other goals set for this year, as posted earlier...
I just have decided to add this one, because it is too good.
I had a decent time this new years. The AGO guys are great, as are Lux and Venitian. And I alway slove hanging out with Lauren :]
I'm pretty stoked to go swing dancing this Thursday.
I have a review this week... :/
I hope that goes well!
anyway, God bless!
i'm beat... i never knew deep cleaning a room could be so draining.
<3
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