silly city.

blue & green city from across the puget sound
Originally uploaded by caterpillars

i love the song happy day
it makes me want to dance every time
i am at church and i hear it.

so my little jury duty thingy wound up
to be a waste of my time and & $20
for effing parking.

they wouldn't let me serve on a jury
due to three factors:
a) the fact that i work for a church
b) me being related to my mom&who she is
c) school.
it kind of made me laugh to myself just a bit.

so my civil duty was completed in two and a half
hours. it was relieving to get it done. so i just
went down to the invisible children offices
and volunteered there a bit. i helped seth
fold and refold and count and re-count and
sort and re-sort t-shirts. it be very tedious work.

this week is a kick off week for the youth group.
so...i am not sure how much free time i will be
having. i just hope it goes smoothly and that
the kidsies like me.

i'm not really sure what to say other than
you should really check out the Adam/Chu Dance Crew aka ACDC on youtube and
support them. it's the biggest online dance battle.
so. yeah. and if you buy a tshirt, 100% of the profits
to go invisible children...

anyway. that's it. i have nothing interesting going on
in my life at the moment.

i love you.

note. photo has no relevance to entry.

Music from the heart
Originally uploaded by jani.elizabeth

the picture reminds me of the book Love Is a Mixtape
which i urge you to check out if you're
a fan of music....it's an autobiography,
but it is very well written.

so...i've been a bit too independent the
past couple of days in only trusting myself
for some random reason. i guess i hit a bit
of a funk for a bit? i know today God is
gonna let me feel the weight of my actions
but i know tomorrow will be so much better.

the past few days have not been bad, despite
how it may seem. i've been hanging out with
the invisible children interns and it's
been fun. also, charles, the UNLV contact for
i.c. is in town, and he and i have hung out the
past two days. it's been chill, and i've liked it.
people from i.c. are legit. that's all i can say.

i'm gonna hang out with alisa&alicia today
which is long, long, long overdue. i am excited
for that. so... alicia&i will be driving up to fallbrook.

so, as you may or may not know, up until august 20,
i am interning at a church in point loma as a youth group
intern/event planner. and this upcoming week is when
the activities are going to start up. i'm excited for the opportunity
to finally meet a lot of the kids. well, they're not kids...they're
junior high and high schoolers, but whatever.

yeah. i have jury duty for the first time ever on monday.
not looking forward to it. meh. that is gonna suck major.
i heard that if you tell them you work for a church,
they won't put you on a jury. also, if that doesn't
faze them, i'm gonna pull the student card.

anyway. yeah. that's my babble-icious post.

enjoy your day. i love you.

sitting. wishing. waiting.

Day 191
Originally uploaded by {damnittoby}

i normally leave stuff lined up
for me to work towards and
look forward to! but right now it
is down time again, and i'm fighting
my normal instinct to rely on myself
and i keep telling myself it's a must
for me to rely on God.

down time. down time is good in
sporadic little doses, but i need a
new project, something to look forward
to and set my sights upon. i get stuff
done. i set an extreme goal, and
i accomplish it. well, might i add.

lalalalalalalalala.

i guess i could just focus on getting
this mystery day planned
for my summer internship, but it doesn't
take much.. i just have a few insignificant little
kinks to work out.

and i guess i have to be patient until
august, which i know is when the thrills
will begin with the Flood internship.
it's going to be hard work and i still have to
figure out how to fit at least a once-a-week
trip to volunteer at the invisible children
offices.

maybe it's goal setting time.

God, is it goal setting time?
You keep working in my life
and You keep opening these
doors wide open... i think it's
just time for me to set goals
for myself... if that is what You
are giving me all this down time
for. Lord, provide me with clarity
and direction and be my rock
to stand on so i can see above
all the things in my way. i trust
in the plan you have for my life.
and You, gracious God, keep
providing me with so much more
when i least expect it. i love You.
in your son's name, amen.

journal time.

p.s. along with hummers, honda oddessy's,
pontiac aztecs, and rice rockets, you can add
the gmc yukon denali to the list of cars i do not
like. the stupid thing literally fried my ass yesterday.

it's me against a big hunk of metal for this job i have.

anyway. things are good, despite what this blog
may give off. haha.

:]

peace.

volunteer work has its rewards

Day 307.
Originally uploaded by {damnittoby}

i'm gonna be working at the invisible children booth
on sunday at warped tour in ventura. they're also
hooking kris up cuz i told them he was coming with
me. we're getting all access passes to the event.

i love those people. i was there at the offices from 10:45-5.
it was a good day. i met new people, as always, and
had great conversation and productivity. everyone
there is an amazing individual. i also met one guy
who helps out with noel's high school group at flood
and when he found out i was the new high school
intern, we hit it off well. he also pushed for the fact
that i get priority as a warped tour volunteer. you
haven't the slightest idea as to how excited i am.

it's warped.

paramore warped tour tents
Originally uploaded by hurleylovesyou

this summer is going to be very different for me.
i am officially done with starbucks.
i have quite a list of goals that i want to
accomplish this summer, and not very much
time or money to do it.

among my internship and school, i need to
somehow manage to fit:
-a trip to the zoo
-the ventura&san diego warped yours
-disneyland
-photo adventure
-drive up the 1&101
-trips to visit people that have gone home for summer
-a fantastic fourth of july
-beach days
-3 months of not cutting my hair
-various other concerts
&&more i have yet to think of...

last night's message really got me, and it was the message
i needed to hear and learn more about.
i kept praying that God rip my heart to shreds and
let Him break through and break into me.
i felt it. and then the water works went off, and i couldn't
have been happier.

"you've got so much love in you"

the stories of unconditional love that he had to tell us last night
were amazing. especially with that one lady who lost so much
that was so important to her and yet she still managed to forgive
and keep on loving.

the lessons that i am going to learn this summer have already started
to become quite apparent. and i'm ready to face them head on. i told
someone on saturday that i am a very confrontational person... and i
intend to work with that.

hmm.

i love hugs.
i loved all the hugs from last night.
i love the strange ways people show affection...whether it be through an awkward smile, a simple touch, a hug, a strange nickname of sorts,
the sheer company and assurance of a text message... i love it all.

anyway, there's a meeting i must get to for my internship.

i love you.

and for those i haven't seen in a week or more,
i miss you.

see you soon and may God continue to light up your life
and let the flame burn brightly.

peace.

simple.

Why I Love Film
Originally uploaded by spkennedy3000

i'm getting the itch to do something big again...
so...i'm gonna get cracking on this rock for africa
thing...cuz yeah...

yesterday was pretty cool. i love the boysies i
intern with.
one of them offered to play for the event...and
i also want to get them to play at flood.
Urban Rescue
check them out.

and theeen i got a call from Invisible Children and
i talked to someone who told me that a couple of them
are starting at Mesa in the fall and that they want to
get me in on starting a Schools for Schools over there...
so after i meet with kenny on thursday, i'm gonna meet
them all and talk to them.

i also have an interview on thursday with marion's child care
and i will hopefully get the job... we will see...
i hope it all pans out well.

:]

my life isn't too exciting at the moment.
i felt so sad yesterday when my manager talked to
me about me quitting and she had the saddest
look in her eyes...i felt bad. but i told her i could
come back after the internships were over...
she felt happy about that.

well.
my best friend is gonna be in town this weekend.

the end.

this is not allowed!

cutting hair against black
Originally uploaded by nmv1969

so i have given myself the ultimatum
that for this summer i will not cut my hair.
i will be allowed to cut my bangs tho..
cuz if they get too long.. well...
yeah. it's just ugly and gross.

:]

so my hair got pretty long last year
but my hair is longer now then it
was at the same point last year.

it is getting close to the "middle stage"
where i tend to get very very frustrated
and just want to cut it again... so i will
need your support and your telling me
NO! that i am not allowed to schedule
any hair appointments!

let's see how long i will let it grow before
i cut it... so i will not be allowed to schedule
any hair appointments for myself until mid
september... i'm giving myself a full 3 months
of hair growing...

:]

what an adventureeee

getting out of what's become comfortable

branch out
Originally uploaded by littlelakey

God really knows how to work me,
that is for sure. i have come to the
realization that i can't get too comfortable
again because there's a decent change
coming my way, yet again.

i haven't been able to solidly plan anything
in quite a while just because i keep getting
introduced new things and because i have
been given new opportunities to take hold of.

so...here i am, yet again, standing and waiting
for the changes to begin. i just got comfortable
and now it is time for me to experience God
full force in my life again...

and honestly, i'm anxious. nervous and excited.
i have no idea what to anticipate, since i am
going at this blindly, but i know God will be my
eyes and He will soon let me see.

so the internship at PLCPC has begun. i get
introduced to the congregation tomorrow morning
as a summer intern. i love everyone i intern with,
but the guy i am paired up to work with...well,
we already have issues...so if you could, pray
for that please? i work with him all summer and
the last thing i want is to go the entire summer
being completely alienated from him because of
how he acts towards me.

this will be the first summer where i don't exactly
get to explore some foreign country, or a new state..
but the first time where i get to stay home...with no job...
just an open heart.

enjoy the sunshine.
i love you.

torn down

broken barriers
Originally uploaded by Dave Mantel

AIM night was perfect. all those guys
blew me away with all the effort they
put in into making the night wonderful.
we were driven over to TPCC and greeted
with "paparazzi". they led us down a walkway
that was lit with lanterns... the walkway into the
building was covered with rose petals.
it was adorable. the affirmations that were read
to us were so sweet...it was awesome!

and at the end of the night they gave all the girls
little journals... then they apologized for taking up
some of the pages... because they each personally
wrote us a note... well, the guys who all knew us.
i love it.
it made me all teary eyed when i started reading it!
it makes my heart warm up every time i read it...
it's love. haha. <3

had my first full day interning yesterday... we were
SUPER productive...sliding down stairs on mattresses...
totally amazing. you don't even know.
:]

getting all dolled up

Getting Dolled Up
Originally uploaded by arghh_im_a_pirate

tonight is girl's AIM night (appreciation in motion)
the girls already hosted one for the guys (which i did not
attend because i was not invited)
but the boys are now hosting one for the girls
and they invited me to this, and i am excited.

it's formal attire, so that means dress and heels
for me...and that i have to make an attempt
at my makeup cuz eyeliner and mascara
will not fly with me...

the location is a secret, and that kind of
leaves it with an air of mystery.. so i am excited.

today has been good. the rock and roll marathon
spectators that doubled as starbucks customers
tipped heavily AND someone wanted some of
my hours, so i got to go home early.

i received a leadership position for
schools for schools yesterday, so i am excited
about that.

good weekend :]