get set, ready to go

Sunset through an Airplane window - 41
Originally uploaded by ToddBox

so at this very moment lauren and i
are sitting in the san diego international airport
messing around on our laptops and flickr-ing
and facebook-ing and all that fun junk!
haha.

our flight to sacramento is delayed, but luckily
from there we will have enough time to make our next flight!

wonderful.

i am really amused by this message from the lady we're staying with.

"pull the string...
kick the door.."
hahahaha

i love it.

i am very excited and i'm glad that this trip is finally here.

so.... keep track of stuff on facebook! i will have video diaries
DAILY along with daily picture uploads.

love you all very much.

it's wet.

Originally uploaded by Believe <><

it's wet up there ^^^^ [[in the picture]]
and it's wet outside... i left my blinds open
over night [i don't know why... normally i am paranoid of creepos]
but i woke up and saw water droplets on the
glass seeing as it had rained.

i like rain...
but i prefer the sun.

i'm really anxious for seattle and kind of
nervous at the same time. this is the first
trip i have ever taken without my family
or some sort of overseeing person in charge
is there... it's just me, a lovely friend, and
the wonders of an undiscovered city.

i am very excited, too.

there's so much i want to do....
and i have two friends up in the rainy city
that i want to see.

after checking weather.com it seems
like the weather is in our favor... :]

it's supposed to be snowing/raining
on monday...
but there's sunny days and partly sunny days
ahead...

even though that is just the prediction, i'm happy.
maybe i will get to see snow for the first time.
that's exciting.

well, i feel like i am babbling so i will leave you with this.

love you.

ideas, ideas

11-20-06
Originally uploaded by chrismaverick

so i woke up this morning with
the sudden urge to write an idea
down in my journal...

1) i want to upload photos everyday
onto flickr. [while in seattle]
so i will be buying a pro account.

2) i want to keep a daily video diary while
in seattle & upload it onto facebook or whatever.

i think it'd be fun.
so i get to go to the eye doctor.
and then i get to work.
then come home and start the wonderful
routine of packing.
i wanna get it done and out
of the way so i can play for
my two days that i have left
in san diego before i leave.

love you!

it's almost done

Hand raised in worship
Originally uploaded by Kealohapau'ole

my application is almost done.
i now just need one more recommendation
and my MBTI....
and i am done.

:D

you're all i want, you're all i need

#214 All i need
Originally uploaded by you-did

you're everything.

*
yesterday was a good day.
i love spending time with friends.
and cracking jokes :]
and laughing super hard

playing balderdash was ridiculous!
i loved reading everyone's responses
and hearing them as well.

yay board games.
haha.

well. i should go off and get ready for dance
right now. but i think i will play on flickr a bit more.

<3
love you

"when words fail, music speaks"
i forgot who said that.

food

the heart of baking
Originally uploaded by Sharon Lea

i love baking. you have no idea.
i made cupcakes and cookies today.
i really wanted to go kind of extravagant
with these cupcakes, but the thing is since
it is a pot luck, i know i should go simple
because i don't want a food that would be
considered a delicacy to get slammed into
the ground..

i made chocolate cupcakes.. but i wanted to
make chocolate ganache. or make a chocolate
mousse cupcake.. i feel like it would have been
delicious... but probably get stared at and walked
by and get left untouched..

but i intend to play with the icing a bit! david suggested
that i just make a vanilla icing and put slices of strawberries
on top... i think i may do that for the regular sized cupcakes,
but for the baby cupcakes i think i will stick to normal icing
and sprinkles...

haha.

and i made chocolate chip cookies with semi-sweet chocolate
chips and white chocolate chips to give it a teensy twist. i wanted
to make it with those, and add butterscotch chips as well to kick
it up even more, but like i said before... it's a pot luck. going
fancy isn't the best idea.

one of these days i will cook for a small group of friends.
go all out and crazy.

i am happy.
love you.

a distorted reflection

Distorted reflection
Originally uploaded by lovestruck.

so saturday i wound up feeling the effects
of a concusion. and now thinking about it,
i was a very angry and bitter person
friday night after leaving the EMT station
and all day saturday. it kinda sucks thinking
about it...because it was me reverting to who
i once was... and who i no longer want to be.

luckily, things took a 180 degree turn for the
better and i felt like myself again. although i
was stuck filling up tons of 5-gallon cambros
over and over that day, it wasn't anything bad.
it was for The Rock church's easter services
and i was glad to help people who wanted
to reach out to others and serve God.
and everyone who came into our store on
Sunday was absolutely wonderful :]

i love easter. Jesus isn't dead anymore..
it is pretty SWEET.

and now that lent is over... i still find myself
craving sweets... but not actually giving into
those cravings. i went grocery shopping for
lunch foods today and as i walked by the cookies
and such multiple times.... i didn't cave and buy them.
i'm pretty proud of myself.

... i'm nervous about the internship application.
i want to do a good job on it and i really want one of
those positions. but i will do whatever God has planned for me.

well, i had a good closing shift tonight. tips were good, too.

love you.

handle me with care

Please Handle With Care - FRAGILE
Originally uploaded by mrbill

"been beat up and battered around
been set up and i've been shot down"

i can't exactly say that today was a bad
day or anything

it just sucked at the end.
the concert was great...
and the rocket summer was amazing..
for what i got to see of them...

some person tried to crowd surf,
wound up kicking me in the face
and then fell on top of me.... if this
one girl hadn't caught my hand and
kept me from falling and hitting my
head on the ground, things would
probably be worse.. so thank you,
whoever you are.

anyway, i wound up having to see
the on site EMT...

blegh. my head hurts a ton.
i have a small cut above my eye.
noooot cool.
especially since i missed my wonderful
the rocket summer.
:[

the lead singer of forever the sickest kids
gave me a hug. he's cool.

yeah.
i'm gonna take some motrin
and hope i wake up in the morning.

break it out

Waiting for the Concert
Originally uploaded by Feblues

the rocket summer is tomorrow.
i am excited.

<3

apparently i am easy to tease..
so say zac and nathaniel
at work.
i think zac mostly does it to get
a reaction out of me. it kinda drives
me crazy.

a guy came in today and took a least
30 seconds to give us his name so we
can put it on his cup... after a while he said
"richard... yes... my name is richard."
hahahahahaha
piece of advice: pick your fake name before
we take your order. the faster you give it to us
the more likely we are to believe it.

oi oi oi.

watching "Becoming Jane" at the moment...
i don't know how i feel about the movie yet.

it's been a good week.. dull... but good.

i'm just getting anxious now having to wait
up to 7-10 business days to find out the
results of my MRI. i wish they could have
told me right then and there what was up.

upsides:
+surrendering it all to God
+looking at the internship application
+Lauren
+people who are ridiculous

dedication

looking back at you
Originally uploaded by tallyyy

watched the movie Dedication
featuring mandy moore.
i love mandy moore.
and i love indie films.
it's a good combination.
<3

mm.
i want a good hug.
i wanna make someone smile.
i wanna make someone laugh.
i want to go on a picture adventure.
i want to go on a drive up the coast.
i found a good song... so that's one thing off my list.
i want to have a good conversation.

i felt worn out today, for some reason.
i was pretty cranky this morning for who knows
what reason. it was really upsetting when i later
fell out of my funk and realized how cranky
i had truly been.

:[

i hope today is progressively gets better.
&&so far, so good.
love you.

maybe, baby

"i will fear no evil
for my God is with me
and if my God is with me
whom then shall i fear?
whom then shall i fear?

oh no, you never let go, through the calm&through the storm
oh no, you never let go, every high and every low
oh no, you never let go, Lord, you never let go of me"

i am a bit apprehensive about tomorrow...
with the MRI and all. i think most of the fear i wound up
instilling in myself since i over-thought the whole thing.
i was already thinking ahead to the surgery without even
knowing if i even need to get it in the first place.
i'm hoping they just tell me my knee is retarded and
that it can be fixed with physical therapy.

i know the Lord will protect me.
and i thank those who are praying for me, too.
i am extremely grateful to have such a loving
group of friends.

they have a whole list of 44 worship songs on iTunes...
i am excited. especially since they even posted it on
the front page as one of the selections :]

le sigh.
work, Flood College, MRI...
tomorrow will be quite a day.
love you.

it's driving me insane

i hate not being able to do anything.
i'm the type of person who wants
to help and get things done... like, now.
i've watched the invisible children video
twice now and it makes my heart ache.
i watched the Sunday video that my
bracelet came with... and it makes my heart ache.

i want to participate in a "displace me"
rally, or even anything similar to it...
even if it is used as a fund raiser to assist
IC or S4S or SOMETHING in order to benefit
the cause.

i hate not being able to do anything!!!
it's the kind of frustration that makes me cry
because i feel so insignificant not being able to
physically do anything. i will always donate money
to some cause of that sort... always...
but to me, money can only do so much.
i want to go and do SOMETHING. lend my
hands to help...

sitting here feeling helpless drives me nuts.
you already know that i want to go to africa
like none other...so it makes no use to keep saying it.

i need to figure out something i can do to help
people in the mean time.

i feel like God's calling for me, ultimately is to have
a career in the long run where i can help people.

to do:
buy water bottles&chewy bars to give to the homeless
whenever i drive by someone.

yay, costco.

ahdjahkjsd
AHHHHHHHHHHHHH

whatevs, whatevs.

face
Originally uploaded by xxblackdahlias

so yesterday was quite a good day.
i have to wear a huge fatty knee brace
that goes from my mid thigh to my mid calf.

and physical therapy isn't very therapeutic,
let me tell you.
physical therapist: "where does it hurt?"
me: "i think the big black knee brace gives it away, dude."
physical therapist: "haha. you are a sassy one, aren't you?"
me: "i haven't even begun to show you."
at least he laughed at my sass, which was good.
made me laugh, too.

helped with an invisible children screening
and i now own a trucker hat with an africa on it
AND the Sunday bracelet... and after i am done
blogging this, i am going to watch the dvd it came with.

we did tons more stuff. i got to bond with more people.
it was epic. although, campus cops are lame...
we had to run like delinquents at one point. haha.
was out past 2AM.
woke up at 10:45 this morning
and i am totally going back to bed
because i, am tired.

highs:
+carson, andrew, scott, james, alisa, luiken, scott mc ghee, adam, jenny, esther, jamin, alicia, grace, brittany, danielle, david, stephen, josh, &&everyone else who hung out last night who's name i cannot think of at the moment
+skating, then getting kicked out of the parking structure
+singingggg
+invisible children
+driving
yeah <3

a visit to the doctor

Doctor visit ;-) or Check-up
Originally uploaded by Sabine75

today was a good day, overall
i went to the doctor to have my
knee checked out and she is
having me go to physical therapy
and i have an MRI scheduled for
next wednesday night at 10PM
i'm going to be so freakin' tired.

so the reason i have to get an MRI
is because the doctor thinks i may
have a torn meniscus.
and if i have a torn meniscus, that means
i am going to have to have surgery.
that is noooooot cool.

so i am praying i don't have a torn
meniscus.

gah.

:x

space cadet

soda astronaut
Originally uploaded by jinjur

today in my
2 and a half hour spanish class
and my 1 and a half hour statistics class
i spaced out.
got very lost into my thoughts.
i over-think things a bit too much
sometimes.

no idea why i was so spaced out...
eh, but i can't do anything about it now.
haha.

mm. thought a lot about prayer, and
how God speaks to us... is it different for
everyone? just a ton of things took over
my mind today.. which is kind of in a way
unfortunate since i SHOULD pay attention
in statistics since i am in no way, shape, or form
mathematically inclined.. but, i guess that
is what books are for.

i look forward to Flood College every week.
&&i love my small group.
&&i was very happy that we were finally able
to get through all the questions and have time
to spare. this week was really good. got me to thinking a lot.

i don't really have much to complain about or anything
not that complaining is good... everything has been so
amazing. honestly, the only thing i can complain about
is being a space cadet in a class that i should have had
full focus on, but, i kinda liked getting lost in thought.

i have a dance midterm tomorrow. and a doctor's appointment
to get my knee checked out to see what's wrong with it...
blah. i hope they just don't tell me that i need surgery
or that i can't dance anymore... but even if they told me the latter,
i'd keep dancing anyway. haha.

:X

anyway. i just feel like this is straight up babble.
love you all.
<3

p.s. i really wanna buy myself a new camera...

a film one. i miss my old one... it broke. haha.

heart for africa

A heart for Africa cross mosaic completed with black grout
Originally uploaded by Heart Windows Art

things that mention africa
in any way, shape, or form
keep throwing themselves
on my plate.

even if it's just simple words
that i come across....
just even mentioning it...
it's insane.

looked at a picture of feet in
a circle at the sand's house today
and wanna know where it was taken?
uganda.
it was of two american missionaries
who painted the toe nails of a few
african women and they all stood
in a circle... and that was the picture
their feet that were pedicured...
TAKEN IN UGANDA!!!

it's too clear to me that i need to
work on growing in my faith
and further my walk with Christ
so that i can hopefully in the
near future, serve as a missionary
in africa...

<3

real milk

cute cow
Originally uploaded by Framed Geek

someone came in today and asked if
we used real milk in our drinks...

so..since i lost an hour of sleep..
and i opened... i was in a pretty
sassy mood to say the least...
so i told him:
"no. we use a milk alternative
that comes from Kows... with
a K, not a C. it looks and tastes
like milk, but it's not. it's completely
synthetic."

and he looks at me and replies
"wow... i never knew that!"

and my asst. manager who i
opened with [who was also feeling sassy]
told him:
"we use real everything. there is no way that
we would be able to carry a synthetic milk..
and... 'Kows' do not exist."

yeah.

how to people get so gullible?
or get to the point where they ask
such dumb questions?

i dunno.
i got a skateboard!
i am stoked.

odd sensation

Marching Medicine Bottles
Originally uploaded by fotobydave

had an odd burning sensation in my throat last night
which i knew meant that i was gonna start getting sick.

co-workers have been super sick [i picked up extra hours for them]
friendsies have been sick
and now my mom is sick
and i'm just hoping that it's
just something that lasts
a few days and nothing more.

ugh.
not a fun feeling.

gift of time

Dandelion clock
Originally uploaded by dictybloke

i know one of my gifts
is giving my time...
because i never mind
doing anything as
long as it is spending time
with people whether it is
to help, or show that i care...
whatever it may be...

so last night after bringing
up the thing that i used to
work at an elderly home
[[fredericka manor in chula vista]]
it made me wonder...
i spend time with friends
and time with people who need
a better influence in their lives...
but, who should i be spending time
with in order to serve?

so i'm gonna look into stuff...
i'm gonna see if i can apply to
be a big sister or if i could
find another elderly home to work at...
old people are funny..
i dunno...something.

i remember when i was setting up
bingo, this old guy, leonard, came up
to me and was like "i should bring a pistol
to bingo... and then i'd automatically win..
then i could take all those prizes. we could
make it like an old western film bank hold-up"
&&
then there was the guy who had houdini, the dog...
and houdini would wander off and disappear
and it'd be my job to find that dog...
&&
then there was millie who wouldn't let anything stop her.
she had a sign on the back of her wheel chair that
said "here comes trouble" haha.

yesterday's plusses:
+hanging out with lauren&chatting..all day :]
+having a big bible study group
+writing 10 pages in my journal

to have&not to hold...

To have & not To hold
Originally uploaded by HaMeD!caL

valentine's day stuff wasn't in
the system anymore so i got
some free mugs, and lau,
one is for you.. it's an 8oz.
travel mug with heart balloons.
i'm not sure if it's the one
you wanted specifically, but
it has heart balloons none the less.

talking to a friend today...
they kinda distanced themselves
from me a bit... and i'm not sure why?
i asked if i had anything to do with it
and all they said was "in the end it was me"...

i'm not sure how i feel about that.
should i feel like i have contributed to something
or not? but whatever, you know? i guess
i just have no other choice except to go with it.

you know how dogs tilt their head to the
side when they have no idea what's going on?
yeah, that's me. haha.

i enjoy the conversations we have
and i find myself looking at pictures
but never really knowing.

i have a fascination with looking at other
people's pictures.

mm. you know when you lock something
away or put it away at least so you
can't look at it anymore.. and all you
want to do it take it out and hold it
just to know it's that easily within reach?
that's how i feel about my heart.
i lock it up and take it out just to make sure
it's there....

to have¬ to hold.
it's for God to do what He wants..
but i'm only human, right?

love you.

relief

Passage
Originally uploaded by louisj90

tears.
of weakness.
of happiness.
ultimately of relief.
of realizing another
one of the gifts God gave me.
of continuously noticing
how much He blesses me.
of seeing how His work
is so amazing.

Lord, you have my heart.

it felt so great last night
to let it all go. to admit my weakness
and to feel Him moving in me.

so far, i've told three of my newer friends
about the nitty gritty past of mine.
it was relieving to let it out
and not to bury it anymore.
to see a smile on their face once
i was done telling them as opposed
to seeing the face of disgust that i had
imagined. to see a welcoming expression
and to hear "that's a great story" as opposed
to "how could you have lived your life like that?"
was amazing.

<3 <3 <3

every time i get a text message i literally
say out loud, "somebody loves me"
and the thing is
someone loves you, too.
:]

gahhh good days are awesome

the difference was like day&night

Day/Night Split
Originally uploaded by Mowling

yesterday sucked.
work, for the first time, was the worst.
i hated being there.
i really disliked everyone that came in.
i mean, who else would like a day
when every customer that came in
was rude, obnoxious, messy, etc...
almost everyone had something personally
insulting to say to one of the baristas that
was on the floor. everyone wound up in tears
except me... i almost cried, too... if it hadn't
been for my district manager walking through
that door and 86'ing everyone in the store.
it was awful. and on top of that, i closed the
night before and opened the next day, so
that didn't help me at all.

but hanging out with scott and a few others
made it so much better. we both shared
stories and i exposed my nitty gritty, and felt
fine sharing what i was once ashamed of
realizing that it is a part of me an i can't change
it, but i honestly wouldn't. talking to someone
helped a lot and it was just fun getting to know
a friend loads better.

and jamin constantly asking me if i was gonna
go hot tubbing got me to go cuz i didn't want
to be lame... it was fun... i jumped in the pool
which was freezing, by the way, and then ran into
the hot tub... scott and robbie joined me...

it was a good night.. just bonding with everyone.
it was much needed.

the difference between today and yesterday
was as different as day and night.

today was awesome.
i am now nicknamed "Pokey" at work...
and yes, after the horse in Gumby...
but zach is gumby... yeah. it was a good
shift and i love my coworkers because
they all are truly a blessing.

i look forward to Flood tonight to get to spend
time with God and with friends.

<3