relief

Passage
Originally uploaded by louisj90

tears.
of weakness.
of happiness.
ultimately of relief.
of realizing another
one of the gifts God gave me.
of continuously noticing
how much He blesses me.
of seeing how His work
is so amazing.

Lord, you have my heart.

it felt so great last night
to let it all go. to admit my weakness
and to feel Him moving in me.

so far, i've told three of my newer friends
about the nitty gritty past of mine.
it was relieving to let it out
and not to bury it anymore.
to see a smile on their face once
i was done telling them as opposed
to seeing the face of disgust that i had
imagined. to see a welcoming expression
and to hear "that's a great story" as opposed
to "how could you have lived your life like that?"
was amazing.

<3 <3 <3

every time i get a text message i literally
say out loud, "somebody loves me"
and the thing is
someone loves you, too.
:]

gahhh good days are awesome