sitting. wishing. waiting.

Day 191
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i normally leave stuff lined up
for me to work towards and
look forward to! but right now it
is down time again, and i'm fighting
my normal instinct to rely on myself
and i keep telling myself it's a must
for me to rely on God.

down time. down time is good in
sporadic little doses, but i need a
new project, something to look forward
to and set my sights upon. i get stuff
done. i set an extreme goal, and
i accomplish it. well, might i add.

lalalalalalalalala.

i guess i could just focus on getting
this mystery day planned
for my summer internship, but it doesn't
take much.. i just have a few insignificant little
kinks to work out.

and i guess i have to be patient until
august, which i know is when the thrills
will begin with the Flood internship.
it's going to be hard work and i still have to
figure out how to fit at least a once-a-week
trip to volunteer at the invisible children
offices.

maybe it's goal setting time.

God, is it goal setting time?
You keep working in my life
and You keep opening these
doors wide open... i think it's
just time for me to set goals
for myself... if that is what You
are giving me all this down time
for. Lord, provide me with clarity
and direction and be my rock
to stand on so i can see above
all the things in my way. i trust
in the plan you have for my life.
and You, gracious God, keep
providing me with so much more
when i least expect it. i love You.
in your son's name, amen.

journal time.

p.s. along with hummers, honda oddessy's,
pontiac aztecs, and rice rockets, you can add
the gmc yukon denali to the list of cars i do not
like. the stupid thing literally fried my ass yesterday.

it's me against a big hunk of metal for this job i have.

anyway. things are good, despite what this blog
may give off. haha.

:]

peace.