the girl you knew is dead.

Pretty dead girl 2
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after seeking out advice from lauren
and talking to david, i feel relatively better.
not completely better because i don't know what
is going to happen day of, but i am going to trust in God
that he will guide me and give me a sense of comfort
and allow me to move with grace and not
seduction.

some believe that you can never truly get rid of
your old self when you try to change. i don't believe that.
the girl i once was is dead. there is no way she's coming back.

the girl you have now in front of you is who i am and who
i intend on being. i'll only keep improving, but who i was
is never coming back.

Lord, allow me to use my body and my talent in dance
as a way to worship you and the physical being that you
have blessed me with. Allow me to move with grace and
let it be seen that I am moving with grace to the world around me.
Give me the ability and the strength to discipline myself if i
start to slip into old habits. Let me walk away for a bit and
allow you to refill me with strength. "Veronica, you're my friend.
You're our friend, and I will make sure that nothing happens."
said David. Thank you for blessing me with a friend
who gives me comfort, but give me the strength to talk to
someone that i am close with for me to have company just in case
i need to walk off and take a break. I thank you, Lord, for all
that you have blessed me with. You never cease to amaze me.
I love you Lord and I will sing your praises all of my days.
In your son's name, amen.