To Write Love on Her Arms

To Write Love on Her Arms, originally uploaded by JamesFallen.

i'm really excited for tomorrow.
my day is absolutely packed
but i have this immense
energy and happiness in regards
to it.

i mean, i do have school, and i do
have to wake up early... but that is
just one part of my day, but also
a good part of my day where i get to
write "LOVE" on my arm for the world
to see.

i will proudly wear my TWLOHA
t-shirt everywhere i go.

i do get my extensions tomorrow...
so you'll see them at Flood College
if you're lucky... haha.

and i'm stoked for Flood College, too!

i just know tomorrow is going to be
a good day, no matter how hectic.
i'm nothing short of excited, as you already
know.

i can't wait for God to bless the day because
then i know it will be even BETTER.

Valentine's Day is on thursday and this
is the first year where i am actually not
bummed in any way, shape, or form.

ok, i'm ending this now...

i'll just start babbling even more if i don't.

<3

happy heart

It happened again.... it must be the heart socks..... :), originally uploaded by janoid.

mm. valentine's day on thursday.
plans: get dressed up all dressy-like
go to dinner at il fornaio up in del mar
kick it with amigos
..then cruise home early cuz i open the next morning.
HAH.

oh well.

this is the first valentine's day where i'm
actually fine being single.
where i'm not desperately searching
for someone to be "mine".
where i'm actually hoping that someone
doesn't ask me to be "theirs".
God is my valentine and so far, He's
been pretty awesome!

i'm also stoked for wednesday
which is To Write Love On Her Arms day.
i'm going sharpie shopping today
in hopes of finding some cool ones.
THAT will be a good day.

&i have decided that all my friends
will be my valentines. :]
i think that's a good idea, at least.

oi oi oi.

went shopping yesterday and
only bought two things. i am
SO proud of myself. that never happens.

alrighty then. i hope you all have a
wonderful day.

i'm already having a good one knowing
that my brother wants to come with my
to Flood. that's pretty sweet.

and i'm also stoked for God time.
<3

alright my loves. this time i'm out.

try something new

mskate, originally uploaded by photorant.

so i was getting taught how to skate my senior year
and now i really want to learn how to skate...
it'd be pretty sweet!!

&&plus... i dress like a skater... haha....
why not complete the image?

*sigh* getting my hair cut today
getting extentions on wednesday...
and might i add, they're going to be
PURPLE extentions. i'm pretty stoked.

this week has been interesting.

Flood College will be added to the weekly schedule.

oh, and i got Across the Universe if anyone
wants to watch that with me sometime.

i don't have much to say today, so that's it!

peace out.

it's a boxcar, with alterations

driving in downtown dallas, originally uploaded by michael hawkins.

..that make us go faster in a fast world...

i noticed that lately, the slowest i drive is 80
on the freeway. i speed... everywhere.
why? i don't get why i'm in such a hurry all the time.

and then i started to realized that was WHY i was
using up so much gas all the time.

i feel like my life i so fast paced.
to the point where i feel like my days that lack
something significant start to blur together.

i need to slow down.
the world shouldn't be slipping me by.
i have time. it's not like i need to rush.

i need to stop and smell the roses.
i need to stop being so anxious.
maybe it's okay to be late every
once in a while.

tell me to slow down, if you think i
need to.
tell me to stop being so anxious, if
i need to.
throw some roses at me and let me
smell them.


i'm only 18, for goodness sake...
and a baby for my age at that...
why do i rush?

step one, two, and three, and four

Jazz Dance Studio (Parma), originally uploaded by teo_ladodicivideo.

i woke up extra early this morning.
i don't even have class until eleven-ten
and i have been up since 5:45...
for once, to a quiet house, quiet dogs,
and darkness.

it was weird. but good. i got my quiet
time to think. i had my Jesus time.
i read a bit, too.

but i'm excited for dance. my legs
aren't, but i know it's going to be enjoyable.

i gave up performing two years ago.
i saw a show with lauren that made me realize
how much i truly do miss it.
i gave up using the gifts God gave me.
and now, i'm honing them again.

*

yesterday i felt a voice in the back of
my head telling me to come to terms with
my past. the voice kept getting stronger as
i went about my day through my classes...
so i stopped paying attention in statistics
and started writing. and i've dug up what i've buried.
i buried my past out of shame, or out of what
people have said to me about it. but i felt that
God told me i needed to come to terms with it.
and now i feel like he's telling me i need to
share it. i don't feel like i need to share with
with a lot of people... just a few.

the way i wrote it was sort as a justification to
WHY i am getting my tattoo...
and the reason i wrote it that way is after hanging
out with a few friends last thursday... and they
asked me why i wanted the tattoo, i told them it
was for personal reasons... and i've felt this
tugging on my heart ever since... like that i
should have explained to them the long and real
reason as to why i'm getting it.

i guess, if you'd like to read my story, i'll share it
with you.

all i ask is that you look at it with non-judgemental
eyes... and that realize that who i am now, is who
i intend to be for a very, very long time.
that my past shouldn't skew your opinion of me.

*sigh* haha.

yesterday's pluses:
+seeing an old friend
+being asked to help with a band
+my co-workers
+my manager
+trashy celeb gossip rags that the
girls in my store&i bond over
+hugs GALORE
+PURE guy-girl friendships

today's plus:
+dancing
dancing
dancing

<3

p.s. took the whole dern weekend off
including friday. let's go somewhere,
go do something... <3

i'm looking back to the heart of worship

worshiping hand on blue, originally uploaded by magbug.

&it's all about you, Lord.


that was a fast answer
to my prayer.

thank you, God, for giving me
a sense of relief, for giving me
friends who also prayed, for
giving me a friend who shared
with me the information i needed
to know to give me mental comfort.

thank you, God, for allowing them
to find what had been misplaced
so all the blame on me could be
lifted.

thank you, God, for giving me a staff
that trusts me and knows me better
than to immediately assume... and that
they found the answer to the dilemma.

thank you, God, for blessing me so
immensely.

i look forward to giving you all of
me. i look forward to singing Your
praises loud&proud tonight.

You are my blanket of comfort.
strong, warm, safe, and secure.
You amaze me.

AMEN

first time feeling

Banksy love, originally uploaded by Maya Newman.

i hate being accused of something.
i'm an honest person.

i mean, the flippin' cash handling
procedures at my job make it so that
no one below the position of shift manager
can touch the cash&drop it, or do anything
with it... [other than ring] but
money went missing from my till
last night. quite a bit. and it's my fault
because i was the last one assigned
to that till.

but i didn't take it. that's not my nature.
nor could i do so, anyway because
i don't have the keys to my drop
or to my till.

but i'm still liable for it.

i'm so scared.
i don't want to lose this job
that i love so much.

:[

i'm innocent.

i don't know how to react.

i don't know what to do.

i feel ridiculously helpless.

frozen. in a box.

with nothing to do.

but wait.

i don't like this feeling.