first time feeling

Banksy love, originally uploaded by Maya Newman.

i hate being accused of something.
i'm an honest person.

i mean, the flippin' cash handling
procedures at my job make it so that
no one below the position of shift manager
can touch the cash&drop it, or do anything
with it... [other than ring] but
money went missing from my till
last night. quite a bit. and it's my fault
because i was the last one assigned
to that till.

but i didn't take it. that's not my nature.
nor could i do so, anyway because
i don't have the keys to my drop
or to my till.

but i'm still liable for it.

i'm so scared.
i don't want to lose this job
that i love so much.

:[

i'm innocent.

i don't know how to react.

i don't know what to do.

i feel ridiculously helpless.

frozen. in a box.

with nothing to do.

but wait.

i don't like this feeling.