my heart leads me

The bunny travels (365/310)
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so when i went to journal yesterday and wallow
in self pity... and of course, place the words on
paper doing so, God got ahold of my hand and
pen.

when i went to complain about me always being
second bested and blah blah, other words took
place on the page. i wrote in such a fury, when i
looked up, the words didn't say what i wanted
them to originally say. when i meant to complain
about myself and my self-worth, God had me
write instead about how He creates all things
beautiful. They're beautiful because they are
His. Nothing made by Him is ever mediocre.
that He is the only one who can determine
beauty because He created it. Someone's
vision skewed by the worldly definition of
beauty knows nothing.

i felt awestruck by that, but then i felt a sense of
peace and realized how true it was.

despite the common pattern that seems to
happen with my love life, i need not worry.
God has got me and He has also placed me
in an amazing community of individuals.

and i'm beautiful. if someone thinks otherwise,
then i feel bad that the world has placed
such stereotypes in their mind.

all i can do is love on them and hope that
they realize the ramifications of what they
say and do.

mm. <3

God is so good.
His love is so good.
And His love burns in my veins.