a day late

Heart
Originally uploaded by Mary Hare

home-mae
good song. i keep playing it over and over.


Ten Things I'm Thankful For
10. The many people God has placed in my life that have helped shape it. (Family, Friends, etc.)
9. Music.
8. The art of worship and that we can worship Christ in any way.
7. Creativity.
6. My internship at an amazing church here in san diego.
5. The many doors God keeps opening in my life to slowly show me his plan. (i went from being a technical theater major specializing in sound and design to being a business major in hopes of starting a non-profit some day!)
4. That I am blessed to live a comfortable life, especially when people have it nowhere near as good as I do.
3. The many opportunities I get to volunteer and use the gift of servantry that God has given me. (volunteering makes me so happy. i can't even come up with words to describe it)
2. Invisible Children and all the other non-profits for doing everything they can to better people's lives in whichever way possible.
1. God's mercy, beauty, creation, love, and grace.

triple dot.

Heart
Originally uploaded by Mary Hare

"it's simple," she said, "i live in a world of fairy books and story tales. a world of mix-ups and disarray. it's topsy-turvy, or upside down. you're different, or you're perfect. outside we love the inner beauty and inside we love the aesthetically pleasing things. decisions are and aren't. things are there but then again, are illusions"

she smiled like the cheshire cat and walked away.

"remember:" she called out, "things are nice or unkempt, or only appear to be so. like i said, i live in a world of fairy books and story tales. it's up to you to make it right."

welcome to my intro for 3D, the new flood high series.
my role as the flood high intern has been changed around.

"i feel like you're a box of amazing things and capabilities that i have been sitting on" said noel.

i now focus on administrative things and creative arts.
i don't lead high schoolers anymore *sigh of relief*
i love the ones i have grown close to, but yeah.
it's so awkward to be in an authoritative position.

so now i create.
and develop.
and have my brain picked more frequently.

am i happier now?
yes.

do i resent doing high school stuff anymore?
nope.

why?
i'm creating things, now. using the spiritual gift that God has blessed me with. when i honor Him and make Him happy, He blesses me in many, many a way.

i love you.

blind.

Blinded
Originally uploaded by blind.folds

um.
semi blind-ish date
sort of thing on sunday?
i blame haley.

but i do like what i know.

*giggles*

oliver!

Oliver (or Ollie)
Originally uploaded by Dylan_Murphy

that's the dog's name in the picture.
yeahhh it's cute. haha. but not mine
at all.

anyway, this weekend has been alright.
hung out with people i went to high school
with.. it was good to see a few, but then
temptation of old habits rolled around
and i bailed pretty fast... didn't want to
get easily caught up in that crap again.

for others, i remembered why i didn't
really stay in contact again... it's so strange
to see how some guy friends STILL have not
grown up. i feel like i'm leaps and bounds
ahead of them in life, and they're still
stuck in high school. it's unfortunate.

anyway... ice skated for the second time in
my life... i didn't cling to the wall, which i
was stoked about. :] but i was not very stoked
about the wonderously huge blisters that are
decorating my feet. i feel like a poster child
for band aids right now.

daddy dearest wants to take family portraits..
so we'll seeeeeee.... i kind of want my own
portraits taken as well, so we'll see what the
dad says.

2 extra days of weekend. i am happy.

anyway, love you.
have a great week.

pray for me?
i feel a bit off balance
for some odd reason.

attempt #2

Skating Palms Out
Originally uploaded by [ CK ]

since i have parents that are from puerto rico
it never really occurred to them to take their
now very americanized children on adventures
to the snow (which i still have yet to experience)
and ice skating.

i have been ice skating once.
tonight will be attempt #2.

i will take a mental tally
of my many meetings of
butt on ice.

wootage.

ahhhh

<3

oh my God shine your light on us

i feel like the lip ring makes my vicious face look more vicious :]
haha. ugh i'm so lame sometimes, i crack myself up.

last night i had to tell my life story to my growth group....and if you know me
and know my past.. it does not at all in the slightest bit come in a pretty
little package. and we're working together on a book called come with me
which is amazing... but i wasn't able to answer a whole section of it just
because i knew it would bring everything that i dealt with growing up
back to the surface... and i hate those times where i have to be vulnerable.
and those times where i am even brought to cry because all those scars
resurface... so i skipped forward in the chapter for this week and read on
about feeling weary... and then i realized that i love it when i can cry
and just stop and breathe... because i can feel God's arms wrapping
around me and cradling me. His gentle shushing...the fact that it's all
ok...

it's a stage of vulnerability for me.

and my normal reaction to this thing would be for me to put on this
tough as nails facade. but. God has been helping me tear down these
walls that i have built around myself for "protection" my whole life.
i'm afraid to get too close in fear of getting hurt. but... there comes
that word again. vulnerability.

so. here's to changes. and here is to me making no sense...
it made sense in my head.

vulnerability.

i kind of like it.

i love you.

the picture above is from my art show.

Art Show
Originally uploaded by thebestofwill

so, it was a brilliant success.
we sold out of tickets cuz the
administration capped us at
200, but i kept letting people
in free... and they in turn
donated the $5 admission.

we had a silent auction that
wound up being very successful
and the artists sold more work
which they in turn donated the
money to us which was sweet
of them... they could have kept
it as personal profit.

merch sold well.
the musicians were amazing.

and i, and very relieved.
project managing is hard...
especially when people only
half ass jobs and i have to fix it.

but alas, it is over, and it feels
like i am light enough to fly away
into the soft blue skies.

things are winding down for
me and i couldn't feel more content
and relaxed... now if only the weather
would get colder, things would
virtually be perfect for me.

but i can't have everything, right?

i love you.