no se, no se...

White Oleander (365/363), originally uploaded by JenniPenni.

no idea why
but after a pretty good week
i got home
and started to feel lame
and lonely.

lonely.
freaking lonely.
i think it was me
sharing my boundaries
and wants/things i won't settle
for in a guy.

i don't know. normally i
don't care that much about it
but right now i can't get it off
my mind. i don't know why
i can't seem to grasp and
accept that a Godly guy
who is equally yoked
with me hasn't pursued
me.

so weird.
i guess it's definitely a
sign to lean in heavier
on God and definitely
hold on tighter.

i've got this image of
a little girl who reaches
her dad's mid thigh who
is wrapping her arms
around his leg so tightly
and not letting go.

i feel like that needs to be
me with God right now.

i don't know why i slip into
these funks so quickly.

Lord,
I caught myself.
But can you hold
my hand tighter?
Amen.