severed.

cut
Originally uploaded by llanfair

so much thought went into
said situation. decided to
cut the ties. any and all.

i can't be friends with
someone who i can't
trust.

and that's just the
least of it.

smiling at the sweet simplicites

IMG_9328-1 copy
Originally uploaded by ANDcreative.

i've been pretty good at not text-conversing.
if i want to talk to someone, i will make an effort
to go see them, or at least, make a phone call.

so with the situation at hand, i have talked to
very, very few people about it since it's something
that does not need to be spread around.
and i thank you all for your prayers. i really
appreciate them.

&&i appreciate the company that those people
have provided me. i am so appreciative of the
distractions i've received. i'm so appreciative
of the things i've gotten to occupy myself with.

it's not completely dealt with...yet...but right now
my heart is working on healing so that i can forgive
and further assess the situation and so i can figure
out what action i need to take.

so far this week has been overall pretty good.
i helped out at the invisible children offices and had
a good laugh with everyone there.

i saw rooney, locksley, and the bridges with andie who
was perfect company for that day.

i started my psychology class which turned out to be quite
the blessing in itself. i got a very relaxed teacher to whom
which i am also very grateful for.

&&i am all registered for fall classes which is awesome
because i got everything i wanted.

shocked.

Confused Sign
Originally uploaded by kudaker (away on vacation!)

i'm confused.
i'm more shocked than anything.
how do you respond to that?
what do you do?

i feel...
not good.
i feel so many things
yet nothing at all.

i am at a loss here
but i know something
must be done because
this is not right.

shock?
i don't like this shock.
it leaves me in a state
of mass confusion and
numb-ness.

why.

i've slept in so many random places.

Everything seems to be okay when she's sleeping on my couch
Originally uploaded by plagueoftruth

i slept on a couch.
i slept on the floor.
i slept on the beach.
i slept sitting up.
i slept half laying down.
i slept in my bed.
i dozed while eating lunch.

my body is out of whack.

yesterday was mellow. ian&luiken surfed, while alisa and i just hung out on the beach. i love her dearly and am excited for her going to Uganda. all four of us kind of hung out most of the day. we all ate at CPK, too. it was good.

so, i did stuff enough to get teased...
"hey veronica, remember that time when you were really bad at throwing rocks?"
"hey veronica, remember that time when you walked to the wrong house?"
yes.
it's what i do. and i don't know how i manage to do that. pretty embarrassing all in all. not really a fan, but i mean, at least someone or some people are getting amusement out of it.

beach at a spot tucked among cliffs.
bbq.
friends.
explosions in the sky.
sleeping on a couch and wanting to go to bed when 4 guys are SO ready to be awake for hours and hours.

yeah. i have to say that it was good.

although i kind of wish it was more eventful.
but i can't complain about the mellow-ness.

hm.
<3

we came to terms.

Door of Truce
Originally uploaded by See El Photo

one good thing about today.
so the guy i'm paired up with
that i didn't entirely agree with
nor get along with too well before..
well, i feel like we came to terms
and bonded today over a common
frustration and situation.

he gave me a pep talk and enlightenment
and i know God spoke to me through him
tonight.

"i think this is the start of a beautiful friendship"
whoever said that is a cheese ball, but one
that i agree with none the less.

one good thing today.
:]

a simple figment of the imagination.

Mermaid
Originally uploaded by bikeracer

i'm trying to figure out how it is
that i remember practically everyone
that i meet;

yet...
one week later, they have no idea
who i am.

EP's

Sun burning through tree
Originally uploaded by blue_combination

this tree reminds me of the EP's that jon foreman
has put out with the titles of the four seasons.

i got to go to the beach today for the first time this
whole summer. my shoulders got sunburned
cuz dummy me put sunscreen all over except my
back, on my shoulders...so they're a bit red-ish.

and the more i go to PB and OB, the more i like
those two places. :] such an interesting vibe.

and i got to cook AND bake today. the joys of
hanging out with my heidi. incredibly perceptive
and meaningful conversations, followed by a hint
of culinary creativity. we invited some friends over
to enjoy the meal we made. we made honey baked
chicken with some rice and corn aaaaand then
we made some molasses ginger snaps which we
decided to bake them to make them soft because
it's just retarded when cookies are crunchy.

anyway. that's it. honestly, i am blessed by everyone
i meet on a daily basis.

smile at a stranger...you might just pass some joy to
someone who needs it... i got a few people to grin today.
:]

i love you very much.